mathieu
Enlightened
- Jun 5, 2019
- 1,090
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I crave for a boyfriend but my insecurities and dyshporia makes that impossible not to mention I am severely depressed.
I dated briefly before and even he wasn't a nice match for me it was magical because I felt wanted.
Now I am just rotting alone and want to die.
I dated briefly before and even he wasn't a nice match for me it was magical because I felt wanted.
Now I am just rotting alone and want to die.
JustAnotherSuicider
Hoping for the best - expecting the worst
- Dec 28, 2019
- 98
My girlfriend just left me a month ago. She was only person that was keeping me from killing myself. I love her, I love her very much. I just can't life without her. I fell strong need to be loved, and to love. Hugging someone that you love is best feeling that exist. And I know that I will never feel it again. She was a miracle, you can't win on lottery twice. I can't even talk to people, so it's impossible to find another girlfriend. I don't think I can hold any longer without love.
what should i tell to not get you uncomfortable. Im also lost in this love thing. Its fucked up, how fast we can fade out without it
memataporfavor
( つ・o・)つ still ill ╮｜｡＞ー＜｡｜╭
- Apr 6, 2019
- 65
I have a bf
found out he's also in this forum
what a nice couple hah
found out he's also in this forum
what a nice couple hah
no way i had the same coincidence with other suicide forum. Thats fucked up, that god gather us together
memataporfavor
( つ・o・)つ still ill ╮｜｡＞ー＜｡｜╭
- Apr 6, 2019
- 65
i dont think its god or fate. i guess its more like we're attracted to fucked up ppl like ourselves lmao
ManWithNoName
Enlightened
- Feb 2, 2019
- 1,224
I'm sorry to hear this, and at the same time am curious as to what happened? How much time had you been together before he ctb'd?
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
I wish I had someone in my life but I've given up hope. In 36 years no-one has ever wanted me, and I can't say I blame them. I don't think I'd *want* anyone I liked to be stuck with a worthless sack of shit like me.
ManWithNoName
Enlightened
- Feb 2, 2019
- 1,224
A member of this forum at as? How long did you know him, and did you two ever meet up in-real-life?
LonelyHopelessDude
Student
- Dec 17, 2019
- 102
Yes, it's one of my "life goal" , finding a partner, I need to love and be loved.
It can be my biggest recovery because it worked for a little period of time.
I think I was truly happy during this precise moment.
It can be my biggest recovery because it worked for a little period of time.
I think I was truly happy during this precise moment.
seekingoblivion
Arcanist
- Dec 11, 2018
- 454
Yeah but I keep getting the message I'm not good enough for one. So trying to not want one but it's really difficult to suppress the desire. Feel pretty worthless.
xXSarac3nSlay3rXx
“Leaving this world is not as scary as it sounds.”
- Mar 3, 2019
- 248
I feel you, my partner passed on an accident 2 months ago that became my first reason to plan my own Ctb
enjoy
Creature
- Dec 20, 2019
- 337
i lost the love of my life around four months ago. i had bpd and she was all that still mattered to me. i'd tell her all the time.
she still left anyway.
needless to say, i hate the idea of being in a relationship now. i can't trust anyone anymore. i feel unworthy of being loved and when i see couples in real life, i'm repulsed. i cry every day and dream about her every night; no exaggeration. it's very painful. time hasn't healed shit. i'm still the same, if not worse. it's the main reason why i want to ctb. life without her is pointless; i just want to be at peace already.
she still left anyway.
needless to say, i hate the idea of being in a relationship now. i can't trust anyone anymore. i feel unworthy of being loved and when i see couples in real life, i'm repulsed. i cry every day and dream about her every night; no exaggeration. it's very painful. time hasn't healed shit. i'm still the same, if not worse. it's the main reason why i want to ctb. life without her is pointless; i just want to be at peace already.
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Pengkitty'send
Member
- Jan 3, 2020
- 8
I dont feel the need, I'm going to end it all anyways and I already got my heart shattered
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