Reflection
Lost
- Sep 12, 2024
- 178
I tried my hardest, sacrificed so much time and effort not only for absolutely nothing, but to be booted out and replaced... yeah it happens to almost everyone, but how is that supposed to make me feel any better?
I'm always on the verge of suffocating just with the thought of her being intimate with someone else, and that's after 1 whole year from the breakup...every minute I keep on living is one where I feel like an absolute cuck....and the feelings of missing her and what we had are still there like rubbing salt on the wound, I still keep dreaming about her frequently and once I wake up and realize she's not there I feel like killing myself, sometimes I even punch myself in the head...I got molested as a child and while that traumatized me I was able to get over it myself, but I never got to this point before in my life.
I'm always on the verge of suffocating just with the thought of her being intimate with someone else, and that's after 1 whole year from the breakup...every minute I keep on living is one where I feel like an absolute cuck....and the feelings of missing her and what we had are still there like rubbing salt on the wound, I still keep dreaming about her frequently and once I wake up and realize she's not there I feel like killing myself, sometimes I even punch myself in the head...I got molested as a child and while that traumatized me I was able to get over it myself, but I never got to this point before in my life.