- Oct 16, 2023
i love my bf he is the best thing in the world i dream of dying in his arms but he is sadly anti-suicide he think of it as a horrible thing where as i think of it as a beautiful peaceful thing. this seems to be the one thing we just can’t agree on. whenever i bring up my plans to ctb he gets agitated or sad and then that makes me feel bad and guilty. i wish i could talk to him and he could be supportive of my wishes but he can’t seem to get over his mindset that suicide is this disgusting thing, he says stuff like “i can’t loose you” or “i can’t lose another person i care about” and it makes me feel so guilty like im going to cause him pain, even tho i was very clear even before we got together that i plan on dying. i dunno a part of me almost resents him for making me feel this guilt but i know he is hurting too at the thought of me dying. any advice of how to communicate that dying is a good thing for me?