Venting My bf drives me to the point of wanting to ctb and then calls the cops to get me to not

[Pangolin]

He's sooooo obsessed with the idea that I'm cheatin. Recently he thinks that me writing nsfw fanfic is cheating bc it's porn I made that other people are using. He called me disgusting, and idiot, an abuser, and many other horrible things that he knows makes me want to ctb, but once I start getting ready to attempt again, he calls 911 and the cop pigs come to my door. Last night I fell asleep in the middle of my attempt and my dad answered the door. now my parents won't stop asking questions and I'm on a watch list or something.

 

[mortuarymary]

Dump him. You don't need this negativity in your life. He's making you ill.

 

[GroundControl]

You should leave him. Writing fanfiction is not cheating, and he's chronically online for thinking so. You do not deserve this torment, nobody does.

 

[rozeske]

No one deserves to be in this kind of relationship. Don't kill yourself because of him. Dump his abusive sorry ass and leave.

 

[tabletop]

He's sooooo obsessed with the idea that I'm cheatin. Recently he thinks that me writing nsfw fanfic is cheating bc it's porn I made that other people are using. He called me disgusting, and idiot, an abuser, and many other horrible things that he knows makes me want to ctb, but once I start getting ready to attempt again, he calls 911 and the cop pigs come to my door. Last night I fell asleep in the middle of my attempt and my dad answered the door. now my parents won't stop asking questions and I'm on a watch list or something.

You just described a highly abusive toxic relationship. Every minute you wait to end the relationship is a minute too long. You are not and will not be okay to stay in such a relationship.

 

[the old man]

I agree with everyone else, this is one nasty control freak, you maybe think that it will improve or they do it because they love you, trust me it's neither, things will only get worse as time goes on and you'll end up living a totally miserable existence, you probably won't take the advice but get out of that relationship ASAP and don't look back.