im at the exit end of highschool, i dont want to be around after. no matter what im going to be expected to work a job, drive through traffic, then distract myself for the rest of day because im too tired to do anything all on autopilot, then i get 2 days to be a human being.
Not much of one unfortunately because ive not developed a personhood or shared what little of one ive had. I guess ive fucked up my ability to socialize because i cant bear trying to connect with people. i cant bear connecting with people because im not who i want to be, im not seen in the way i want to be seen and ive only ever felt that what i want is not allowed to me.
Im tired of the stress filled and never relieving day to day, i dont want to fix my problems anymore i just hope to ctb soon. Its funny how i cant talk to people now or else theyll catch onto the fact i dont want to be around anymore.
Not much of one unfortunately because ive not developed a personhood or shared what little of one ive had. I guess ive fucked up my ability to socialize because i cant bear trying to connect with people. i cant bear connecting with people because im not who i want to be, im not seen in the way i want to be seen and ive only ever felt that what i want is not allowed to me.
Im tired of the stress filled and never relieving day to day, i dont want to fix my problems anymore i just hope to ctb soon. Its funny how i cant talk to people now or else theyll catch onto the fact i dont want to be around anymore.
