Venting my anxiety about my method is driving me crazy

[bluegodism]

i've read a lot about my method. i'll make sure no one will be at home. but i'm still anxious. scared of not knowing what to do. i'm scared of going wrong... j'm afraid this anxiety will hinder me more than it already is .
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[unabletocope]

What's making it confusing for you?

 

[bluegodism]

What's making it confusing for you?

i'm mostly not sure what position i should be in for partial hanging . besides, i'm afraid of failing ...

 

[unabletocope]

I see. Hanging is quite intense, have you thought about SN?

 

[LaughingGoat]

i'm mostly not sure what position i should be in for partial hanging . besides, i'm afraid of failing ...

Not to make you more uncertain in yourself just looking out for your best interests, but partial failure is common due to SI kicking in, hesitating, person/knot being in a bad position. If you are going to go through with that method, be absolutely certain about all the details of how you are going to doing it. Once you've got that set, you might benefit from methodically visualizing yourself doing each step over and over again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd also fear trying to die going wrong, I find it so extremely cruel how people cannot just have the option to just reliably die in a peaceful way without any risks and complications. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you find peace eventually.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Partial has a high failure rate bc you will need to keep up the pressure to tighten the noose around your neck even after you passed out. I'm sorry you have such strong SI. The fear of failure is one of the biggest fears we all have here. You're not alone suffering from that.

 

[bluegodism]

I see. Hanging is quite intense, have you thought about SN?

yes, but i cannot receive orders at home or anywhere else. family already found my sn literally a day after I bought it

Não para deixá-lo mais inseguro consigo mesmo, apenas zelando pelos seus melhores interesses, mas o fracasso parcial é comum devido ao SI entrar em ação, hesitar, pessoa/nó estar em uma posição ruim. Se você for seguir esse método, tenha certeza absoluta de todos os detalhes de como fará isso. Depois de definir isso, você pode se beneficiar visualizando-se metodicamente executando cada etapa repetidamente.

SI it's not a big problem for me. i would say i learned to deal with it and not ignore it

Partial has a high failure rate bc you will need to keep up the pressure to tighten the noose around your neck even after you passed out. I'm sorry you have such strong SI. The fear of failure is one of the biggest fears we all have here. You're not alone suffering from that.

do you think this is a sign of a strong SI? i always thought i didn't have a strong SI