My 2 cents on Ambien addict

[R. A.]

@shiba @Kali_Yuga13 I had a feeling that post was gonna get axed, and wanted to remember exactly what everyone replying was saying, so I have it screengrabbed (to a point). OP is below.

Some of the remarks were utterly devoid of humanity. I get this world can do that but holy shit.

 

[idiotmother]

Effexor is one of the one's I've read about being particularly difficult to get off and requires a long time to stabilize after each taper reduction. I hope you beat this!

I don't think I will. I'm on two anti psychotics now, which are even worse than antidepressant's. I got myself into this horrific mess. Thank you for your kind thoughts, however, much appreciated.

 

[Light_]

Wow your words are so powerful, thank you for sharing them. I can't even get off these meds TO heal though. And I was on surviving antidepressants, I just got worse. I was in Effexor withdrawal already when I reacted badly to a supplement and was hospitalized. I was placed on klonopin rhen risperidone against my will. I tried tapering the risperidone, which set me off and I went to the hospital again, voluntarily and let them put me on seroquel. I hate the seroquel so much, it has really brought me down even more. And there's no way I'll be able to taper these things safely without setting myself off again. I feel so crappy on them too, I just need to pass away. It's so terrible, I have a family who loves me and I made these stupid choices that made healing impossible.

Thank you so much

please don't believe that healing is impossible. it is possible. it won't be easy, or necessarily a short process, but what is even 5 years in the course of lifetime? people aren't told this but it can take 10 years for the brain to heal, years can go by with a flatline you would be sure is permanent. I've been there. the brain is not static and it can rewire around areas of profound damage, like I had/have. it breaks my heart how many wind up giving up because of these god damn poisons!! i know a man, he went off benzos after being on them for decades, cold turkey, and it took him 10 years to get better, but he did. he couldn't talk, think, nothing, he certainly would not have been able to get on a computer and join a group like this, or even type a word let alone understand one, but by the end of his 50's he got better. his brain finally recuperated and he is still alive today. I'm not saying it would take you or anyone else 10 years, I'm just trying to illustrate that you are not alone, and, as nightmarish as it is to believe, there have been others even worse who have recovered. i cannot curse the pharmaceutical corporations hard enough for the crimes they get away with and lobby hard in DC to make sure than can continue. hang in there.

 

[wine is fine but]

Going by what the poster you were responding to is taking - uppers/amphetamines, a SNRI and blood pressure medication presumably to balance them out it's no wonder they refer to their doctor as an "angel". I know of people wrecked by them too though.

my doctor is an angel, because after seeing multiple doctors over 15 years and getting told that everything is fine with me, she has worked with me through over another 10 years to diagnose and fix multiple issues. unlike many doctors and people, she is willing to think outside her own little world and doesn't rely on reading case studies. her wisdom is not limited to what other people have told her to believe. she goes above and beyond what the average person will ever do

 

[idiotmother]

please don't believe that healing is impossible. it is possible. it won't be easy, or necessarily a short process, but what is even 5 years in the course of lifetime? people aren't told this but it can take 10 years for the brain to heal, years can go by with a flatline you would be sure is permanent. I've been there. the brain is not static and it can rewire around areas of profound damage, like I had/have. it breaks my heart how many wind up giving up because of these god damn poisons!! i know a man, he went off benzos after being on them for decades, cold turkey, and it took him 10 years to get better, but he did. he couldn't talk, think, nothing, he certainly would not have been able to get on a computer and join a group like this, or even type a word let alone understand one, but by the end of his 50's he got better. his brain finally recuperated and he is still alive today. I'm not saying it would take you or anyone else 10 years, I'm just trying to illustrate that you are not alone, and, as nightmarish as it is to believe, there have been others even worse who have recovered. i cannot curse the pharmaceutical corporations hard enough for the crimes they get away with and lobby hard in DC to make sure than can continue. hang in there.

I really don't think I can hang on during the tapering, the symptoms get so horrible. Last time I tried reducing the risperidone, i ended up having to go on seroquel. I wish I never did, I should have just taken more benzos. I literally cannot handle the anxiety and shaking. I can barely handle what I'm feeling now. What drugs were you on?

 

[Light_]

I really don't think I can hang on during the tapering, the symptoms get so horrible. Last time I tried reducing the risperidone, i ended up having to go on seroquel. I wish I never did, I should have just taken more benzos. I literally cannot handle the anxiety and shaking. I can barely handle what I'm feeling now. What drugs were you on?

antibiotics, quinolones are actually the most damaging and insidious receptor binders in the brain and body, far more potent and destructive than psych drugs actually. unbeknownst to most of the population, but the fact remains....worse still is the mitochondrial destruction they cause, literally killing the cells regardless of type, muscle, vascular, cardiac, neurological etc. hideous drugs. I have permanent damage i will never recover from unfortunately, and those damages will take my life sooner than nature would have, but I got my consciousness back which i didn't think would be possible. it's your choice and truth what you can or cannot handle, I would just encourage you to hang hang on if you want to live, but I also KNOW it will be HELL to get to the other side. I went through it for 10 years, then had a few couple good years, then when even even further into destruction for 5. but I can say, it was worth it. I am so sorry this is what you are facing. truly. i posted awhile ago my full medical profile and why i ended up how I did. if you want to see all the drugs I took. I left a lot out from my younger years, but my entire existence has been characterized by Rx and allopathic toxicity. it's all so fucking tragic.

 

[idiotmother]

antibiotics, quinolones are actually the most damaging and insidious receptor binders in the brain and body, far more potent and destructive than psych drugs actually. unbeknownst to most of the population, but the fact remains....worse still is the mitochondrial destruction they cause, literally killing the cells regardless of type, muscle, vascular, cardiac, neurological etc. hideous drugs. I have permanent damage i will never recover from unfortunately, and those damages will take my life sooner than nature would have, but I got my consciousness back which i didn't think would be possible. it's your choice and truth what you can or cannot handle, I would just encourage you to hang hang on if you want to live, but I also KNOW it will be HELL to get to the other side. I went through it for 10 years, then had a few couple good years, then when even even further into destruction for 5. but I can say, it was worth it. I am so sorry this is what you are facing. truly. i posted awhile ago my full medical profile and why i ended up how I did. if you want to see all the drugs I took. I left a lot out from my younger years, but my entire existence has been characterized by Rx and allopathic toxicity. it's all so fucking tragic.

I tried finding your previous posts but this is the only thread that came up when I searched for you.
My problem is I feel like I want to die already on these drugs and idk how to taper , despite being on surviving antidepressants. It feels too hard and my doctor won't prescribe liquid form of risperidone. It just doesn't seem possible that I will get through this. I feel so, so terrible all day and it'll only get worse with tapering and then I'll end up on more drugs becsuse I can't take the Akathisia. It's truly awful.
I'm sorry for your damage too, I've heard about antibiotics damaging people, it's truly sick. I don't understand it.
My life has turned into a foul, absurd existence but then I think about taking sn and that scares me too. I'm scared of what will happen to my family but I'm also suffering so much. It's been a year of downward spiraling all because of my terrible mistakes with a supplement and then more psych meds. I feel like I need to end it soon though, like the sooner the better.
What are your symptoms?

 

[Light_]

I tried finding your previous posts but this is the only thread that came up when I searched for you.
My problem is I feel like I want to die already on these drugs and idk how to taper , despite being on surviving antidepressants. It feels too hard and my doctor won't prescribe liquid form of risperidone. It just doesn't seem possible that I will get through this. I feel so, so terrible all day and it'll only get worse with tapering and then I'll end up on more drugs becsuse I can't take the Akathisia. It's truly awful.
I'm sorry for your damage too, I've heard about antibiotics damaging people, it's truly sick. I don't understand it.
My life has turned into a foul, absurd existence but then I think about taking sn and that scares me too. I'm scared of what will happen to my family but I'm also suffering so much. It's been a year of downward spiraling all because of my terrible mistakes with a supplement and then more psych meds. I feel like I need to end it soon though, like the sooner the better.
What are your symptoms?

Severe pharmaceutical brain injury 5 years. getting better.

I haven't been on here in months. I've been suffering with severe brain damage for the last 5 years, the last two being the hell I didn't think could exist. My case history, over 1 year of daily oral doses of macrobid. Followed by doses of ciprofloxacin. The Cipro damage took me about 7 years to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

My problem is I feel like I want to die already on these drugs and idk how to taper ,

I don't have personal experience with risperidone nor anyone who's taken it. Did a little reading and it's a serotonin antagonist. It also comes in an injectable form that lasts 2-4 weeks. I wonder if it would be easier to taper with that?
Some anti-histamines like hydroxyzine have serotonin antagonist effects and may be worth looking into as a buffer.

Like @Light_ said it might take a level of persistence and commitment you may not feel you presently have. Terrible dependencies can take what amounts to a spiritual transformation to overcome.

There's other factors we on SaSu don't know like your physical heath, your support network (if any), work dependencies etc. Plus there's the question of what your using these drugs to treat in the first place and if those concerns will resurface.

If you can find a doctor like @wine is fine that's willing to take your tapering concerns seriously including the symptoms presented by lowering doses that would be ideal. I have no idea of how doctors present themselves as experts getting OFF these kinds of drugs though. It's probably a matter of finding a doctor that happens to be an empath and sympathetic to your cause.

I'm not "pro life" but I hate the idea of someone being a casualty of modern medicine so again I hope you find healing.

 

[idiotmother]

I don't have personal experience with risperidone nor anyone who's taken it. Did a little reading and it's a serotonin antagonist. It also comes in an injectable form that lasts 2-4 weeks. I wonder if it would be easier to taper with that?
Some anti-histamines like hydroxyzine have serotonin antagonist effects and may be worth looking into as a buffer.

Like @Light_ said it might take a level of persistence and commitment you may not feel you presently have. Terrible dependencies can take what amounts to a spiritual transformation to overcome.

There's other factors we on SaSu don't know like your physical heath, your support network (if any), work dependencies etc. Plus there's the question of what your using these drugs to treat in the first place and if those concerns will resurface.

If you can find a doctor like @wine is fine that's willing to take your tapering concerns seriously including the symptoms presented by lowering doses that would be ideal. I have no idea of how doctors present themselves as experts getting OFF these kinds of drugs though. It's probably a matter of finding a doctor that happens to be an empath and sympathetic to your cause.

I'm not "pro life" but I hate the idea of someone being a casualty of modern medicine so again I hope you find healing.

Thanks so much, the fact that you care means a lot. Idk if I can find a doctor to help me get off safely, they all follow the pharmaceutical company guidelines about tapering which are actually way off base. Most of the ones I've spoken to get annoyed at me or think I'm crazy.

I haven't been able to work for awhile, I'm basically a leech to my mother and sibling, and I have my own child too. I'm a pathetic disgrace. My mom wants me to go inpatient again to try to get off the seroquel, but I know it's too late. I'm gonna feel the unbearable effects and then I'll be slapped onto another drug . It's so scary but maybe it's my best option.

I also keep feeling like I should have passed away last week. I'm scared to keep living in this state. It's hard to see people getting excited for things when I'm such an anxious mess now. Even leaving the house and having to speak to people sends me into panic bexause I don't want to form any connections and I don't want my family being to comfortable with the fact of me being here. It's hard to explain and is a bizarre feeling. I just don't know what to do, I feel trapped between worlds.

 

[Light_]

Thanks so much, the fact that you care means a lot. Idk if I can find a doctor to help me get off safely, they all follow the pharmaceutical company guidelines about tapering which are actually way off base. Most of the ones I've spoken to get annoyed at me or think I'm crazy.

I haven't been able to work for awhile, I'm basically a leech to my mother and sibling, and I have my own child too. I'm a pathetic disgrace. My mom wants me to go inpatient again to try to get off the seroquel, but I know it's too late. I'm gonna feel the unbearable effects and then I'll be slapped onto another drug . It's so scary but maybe it's my best option.

I also keep feeling like I should have passed away last week. I'm scared to keep living in this state. It's hard to see people getting excited for things when I'm such an anxious mess now. Even leaving the house and having to speak to people sends me into panic bexause I don't want to form any connections and I don't want my family being to comfortable with the fact of me being here. It's hard to explain and is a bizarre feeling. I just don't know what to do, I feel trapped between worlds.

you are doing the best you can in a situation no living being should ever have to face.. I hope you find a way to navigate all this, as insurmountable as it seems right now.

 

[idiotmother]

Severe pharmaceutical brain injury 5 years. getting better.

I haven't been on here in months. I've been suffering with severe brain damage for the last 5 years, the last two being the hell I didn't think could exist. My case history, over 1 year of daily oral doses of macrobid. Followed by doses of ciprofloxacin. The Cipro damage took me about 7 years to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Gosh that's terrible, why are we forced to suffer like this?! This world is full of too much suffering, it's not right.

you are doing the best you can in a situation no living being should ever have to face.. I hope you find a way to navigate all this, as insurmountable as it seems right now.

Thank you so much, really. Your words have been so inspiring and reading your story was incredible. Are you doing any better now?

 

[Light_]

Gosh that's terrible, why are we forced to suffer like this?! This world is full of too much suffering, it's not right.

Thank you so much, really. Your words have been so inspiring and reading your story was incredible. Are you doing any better now?

Yes, many things have healed and disappeared or have improved. I didn't think it was possible. Some things haven't and never will, like the damage to my autonomic nervous system and the cardiac issues. Those haven't budged, if anything they're getting worse just due to the amount of time that they've been happening and the extra toll the dysfunction takes on the system itself, and because the system is already damaged, it's just compounding. I'm still going to die because of the toxicity of these poisons, that will kill me probably not in too distant a future, but I feel it is a small victory that I didn't have to take my own life if that makes sense. Not everyone gets as bad as me and has multiple system failures, that's why I have so much hope for those that are only suffering with the brain issues, because that will get better. It's when you get into the cardiac, respiratory damage, that I believe one's fate is sealed when they get to be my age. Someone younger, there's probably still more flexibility and healing potential even for injuries like that. The last two decades of my life have been such a nightmare, my body is just spent. It's a tragedy I can't even put words around anymore. I just don't want anyone to believe that their brain can't heal, because if mine could come back from where it was, and other people that I have known that have suffered tremendously and unspeakably, I just don't want anyone giving up when they don't have to

 

[idiotmother]

Yes, many things have healed and disappeared or have improved. I didn't think it was possible. Some things haven't and never will, like the damage to my autonomic nervous system and the cardiac issues. Those haven't budged, if anything they're getting worse just due to the amount of time that they've been happening and the extra toll the dysfunction takes on the system itself, and because the system is already damaged, it's just compounding. I'm still going to die because of the toxicity of these poisons, that will kill me probably not in too distant a future, but I feel it is a small victory that I didn't have to take my own life if that makes sense. Not everyone gets as bad as me and has multiple system failures, that's why I have so much hope for those that are only suffering with the brain issues, because that will get better. It's when you get into the cardiac, respiratory damage, that I believe one's fate is sealed when they get to be my age. Someone younger, there's probably still more flexibility and healing potential even for injuries like that. The last two decades of my life have been such a nightmare, my body is just spent. It's a tragedy I can't even put words around anymore. I just don't want anyone to believe that their brain can't heal, because if mine could come back from where it was, and other people that I have known that have suffered tremendously and unspeakably, I just don't want anyone giving up when they don't have to

The problem is the shaking and utter terror infeel when i taper which leads me to adding in a new med. I'm like caught in a corner where I can't stay on the meds but can't taper them either. Although it's just the brain, it's still very horrific and i feel like I have no choice but to die but I haven't tried tapering down in a little while. I'm so scared. The uncontrollable shaking and panic are not survivable. I've definitely been cursed to have ended up in this situation. I'm sure you feel cursed as well. You have damage to your heart?

 

[Light_]

The problem is the shaking and utter terror infeel when i taper which leads me to adding in a new med. I'm like caught in a corner where I can't stay on the meds but can't taper them either. Although it's just the brain, it's still very horrific and i feel like I have no choice but to die but I haven't tried tapering down in a little while. I'm so scared. The uncontrollable shaking and panic are not survivable. I've definitely been cursed to have ended up in this situation. I'm sure you feel cursed as well. You have damage to your heart?

yes, the vessels, muscle, nerves all of it. I know your situation is terrible with feeling you can't get off those drugs. if you decide to stop, it won't be easy for a long time, but then you will start to heal. I wish there was an easy way, I wish there was accountability and that no one had to go through something so unimaginably unbearable. I hope you find your way through to the other side and live again. you didn't deserve any of this.

 

[idiotmother]

yes, the vessels, muscle, nerves all of it. I know your situation is terrible with feeling you can't get off those drugs. if you decide to stop, it won't be easy for a long time, but then you will start to heal. I wish there was an easy way, I wish there was accountability and that no one had to go through something so unimaginably unbearable. I hope you find your way through to the other side and live again. you didn't deserve any of this.

Thank you so much, your words have been so touching. I wish I could live, but I don't think it's going to be possible. My poor daughter never deserved this, to have 2 effed up parents. Fucking cursed from hell, I know it.

 

[HD72]

Wow your words are so powerful, thank you for sharing them. I can't even get off these meds TO heal though. And I was on surviving antidepressants, I just got worse. I was in Effexor withdrawal already when I reacted badly to a supplement and was hospitalized. I was placed on klonopin rhen risperidone against my will. I tried tapering the risperidone, which set me off and I went to the hospital again, voluntarily and let them put me on seroquel. I hate the seroquel so much, it has really brought me down even more. And there's no way I'll be able to taper these things safely without setting myself off again. I feel so crappy on them too, I just need to pass away. It's so terrible, I have a family who loves me and I made these stupid choices that made healing impossible.

Thank you so much

Wow your words are so powerful, thank you for sharing them. I can't even get off these meds TO heal though. And I was on surviving antidepressants, I just got worse. I was in Effexor withdrawal already when I reacted badly to a supplement and was hospitalized. I was placed on klonopin rhen risperidone against my will. I tried tapering the risperidone, which set me off and I went to the hospital again, voluntarily and let them put me on seroquel. I hate the seroquel so much, it has really brought me down even more. And there's no way I'll be able to taper these things safely without setting myself off again. I feel so crappy on them too, I just need to pass away. It's so terrible, I have a family who loves me and I made these stupid choices that made healing impossible.

Thank you so much

Seroquel is one of the worst meds you can be on. And people who claim to recover are usually young and/or were not on the meds long or weren't on a lot of meds. For the rest of us telling us we can get better is giving false hope.

 

[idiotmother]

Seroquel is one of the worst meds you can be on. And people who claim to recover are usually young and/or were not on the meds long or weren't on a lot of meds. For the rest of us telling us we can get better is giving false hope.

I know, and I did it to myself. I was hospitalized and let them give it to me. I'm so fucked. Idk how to get off of it. I can't handle the supreme, constant anxiety, shaking and Akathisia. I hate myself so much for what I've done to myself. This has all been a mess of a downward spiral led by my idiotic choices. I'm going to traumatize my whole family because I couldn't handle this. Why did this have to happen?! I hate it so, so much.

Which meds are you on?

 

[HD72]

I know, and I did it to myself. I was hospitalized and let them give it to me. I'm so fucked. Idk how to get off of it. I can't handle the supreme, constant anxiety, shaking and Akathisia. I hate myself so much for what I've done to myself. This has all been a mess of a downward spiral led by my idiotic choices. I'm going to traumatize my whole family because I couldn't handle this. Why did this have to happen?! I hate it so, so much.

Which meds are you on?

You name the med I've been on it. Currently mirtazapine and Xanax. I can't get any help. Not that there's anything they can do. I just want to die.

 

[idiotmother]

You name the med I've been on it. Currently mirtazapine and Xanax. I can't get any help. Not that there's anything they can do. I just want to die.

Does the Mirtazapine make you feel worse? I'm also on a Benzo, klonopin. And risperidone and seroquel. Just drugged the fuck up. I want to get off them so badly but I know it'll make me worse. There's no way out.

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

Backstory - A few hours ago someone claiming to be the niece of user @Ambien addict stated that the user had committed suicide on August 17th 2025. The niece saw the body and by her description and the user's post content it sounds like she used SN. The niece implored SaSu users not to ctb due to the experience of loss by relatives.

Some users offered supporting words while others scolded her for overstepping into this space with "pro-life" sentiments. Arguments ensued and the post was deleted apparently.

I knew the user name but didn't interact with her.

She joined this site less than a month ago. Some people do that, they've been suicidal for some time maybe lurked here and finally made an account to get some final questions answered.

According her post history, she was a 55 year old woman, agoraphobic, disabled in some way, suffering from a 25 year dependency on benzos and Ambien so bad she couldn't sleep or even eat without them to calm down. Recently and reluctantly started on Seroquel to sleep and playing with the doses which we now is contra-advised.

3 intentional OD's leading to 3 psych wards, 70k medical debt and facing homelessness. She acquired SN and AE's on her own.

She posted in the partner's thread on the 15th only two days before committing. The tone of her posts was desperate and yet despite her pain she came off as a friendly communicator. Really sad, she was bouncing off the walls in such mental anguish it was truly palpable in her writing more than any other posts I've read here before.

To me it sounds like she was a casualty of modern psychiatric medicine. No doctor should be giving unmitigated long term habit forming medication like that without an off ramp. Very unscrupulous. The pharmaceuticals painted her brain chemistry into a corner. No one on this site caused or coaxed her into suicide. And certainly didn't cause any where near the harm of the pharmaceutical cocktail she was prescribed. Many of are here due to such predatory and abusive medical "treatments" or at least as a contributing factor. What does a person do to "get help" when the "help" caused the problem?

To the niece if you're still browsing this site - You sound like a nice person. You cared for your aunt and didn't want her gone. That's understandable. Take your time and grieve in heathy ways with the appropriate support.

Your aunt sounded like a nice person too. Thanks for notifying us. It's likely we're some of the last people she felt she could confide in. Some of us understand the gravity and even honor of such a position. I hope she's smiling down on you.

RIP @Ambien addict

This hit hard. This was me. From age 17 until a few years ago in my early 30s I was on stuff like ambien and benzos on and off. I've been isolated and agoraphobic for years on end. I finally got off that shit myself and it nearly killed me. I nearly died when I was agoraphobic and addicted to benzos but unlike her I was found. I totally understand the hell she went through. No one else cared or understood any of what I went through. I am sure it was like that or felt like that to her too. These fucking doctors and pharmaceutical people are the ones that should be paying for this. She didn't deserve any of that.

 

[HD72]

Does the Mirtazapine make you feel worse? I'm also on a Benzo, klonopin. And risperidone and seroquel. Just drugged the fuck up. I want to get off them so badly but I know it'll make me worse. There's no way out.

It makes me worse and I tried to get off the dr wouldn't help me. You are supposed to drop 10% of the current dose each month if u have a reaction go back to the last dose where u were ok hold there then try again. I couldn't get off I got very sick. They told me to stop cold turkey that that wasn't possible. They wouldn't help me figure the dose or give me a script for liquid because I was on such a low dose. When I try to find another doctor and they find out I'm on a benzo they hang up on me. I have tried any and all methods for help. That is why I want to CTB but I can't get out to get supplies and I have no one to help me. I'm trapped in my body in this horrible house where I was abused. I'm going mad. I need help. Someone please help.

 

[idiotmother]

It makes me worse and I tried to get off the dr wouldn't help me. You are supposed to drop 10% of the current dose each month if u have a reaction go back to the last dose where u were ok hold there then try again. I couldn't get off I got very sick. They told me to stop cold turkey that that wasn't possible. They wouldn't help me figure the dose or give me a script for liquid because I was on such a low dose. When I try to find another doctor and they find out I'm on a benzo they hang up on me. I have tried any and all methods for help. That is why I want to CTB but I can't get out to get supplies and I have no one to help me. I'm trapped in my body in this horrible house where I was abused. I'm going mad. I need help. Someone please help.

It's not even possible to drop 10% of these drugs. My doctor won't give me liquid either, which i hear switching to liquid can be very hard . I'll be one of those people it's hard on. I'm so fucking stuck. I'm sorry the doctors don't believe you either. What dose of Mirtazapine are you on? Does it make you feel groggy during the day? I'm also sorry that you are being abused, thats really screwed up ;((

 

[HD72]

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It's not even possible to drop 10% of these drugs. My doctor won't give me liquid either, which i hear switching to liquid can be very hard . I'll be one of those people it's hard on. I'm so fucking stuck. I'm sorry the doctors don't believe you either. What dose of Mirtazapine are you on? Does it make you feel groggy during the day? I'm also sorry that you are being abused, thats really screwed up ;((

can't sleep at all I go days without sleep then I pass out for 30 minutes wake from pain and do it again. This will go on for hours. I can't eat or shit. They have me living on laxatives. I wish I could get a gun or get gas I can't get out. The panic is too bad.

 

[idiotmother]

I

can't sleep at all I go days without sleep then I pass out for 30 minutes wake from pain and do it again. This will go on for hours. I can't eat or shit. They have me living on laxatives. I wish I could get a gun or get gas I can't get out. The panic is too bad.

I can understsnd the panic, it's so hard to explain to others because I wasn't always like this; the drugs fried something in my brain. No one believes me. How long have you been in this terrible condition?

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

I'm scared to keep living in this state.

Are you able to differentiate which drugs are giving you which symptoms? Then maybe taper one at a time?

I read that risperidone can be given by subcutaneous injection that lasts 2-4 weeks. If your doctor isn't going to work with you on this are you able to find a new one? I found a list of doctors that specialize in getting people off psych meds here.

It's not even possible to drop 10% of these drugs.

Why not? What's wrong with using a pill splitter?

Honestly it sounds like you want to stay alive but for this problem that seems unsurmountable.

 

[idiotmother]

Are you able to differentiate which drugs are giving you which symptoms? Then maybe taper one at a time?

I read that risperidone can be given by subcutaneous injection that lasts 2-4 weeks. If your doctor isn't going to work with you on this are you able to find a new one? I found a list of doctors that specialize in getting people off psych meds here.


Why not? What's wrong with using a pill splitter?

Honestly it sounds like you want to stay alive but for this problem that seems unsurmountable.

I can't split the pills accurately or precisely. Some of them are sealed with enteric coating that will lead to "dose dumping" if cut and then consumed. There's really no way for me to live. Im so screwed. The seroquel might be able to be split, I have a scale, but I'll have no clue how much active ingredient I'm getting. There's just no way.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Rest in peace to AA. <3

 

[HD72]

I can understsnd the panic, it's so hard to explain to others because I wasn't always like this; the drugs fried something in my brain. No one believes me. How long have you been in this terrible condition?

5 almost 6 years

Are you able to differentiate which drugs are giving you which symptoms? Then maybe taper one at a time?

I read that risperidone can be given by subcutaneous injection that lasts 2-4 weeks. If your doctor isn't going to work with you on this are you able to find a new one? I found a list of doctors that specialize in getting people off psych meds here.


Why not? What's wrong with using a pill splitter?

Honestly it sounds like you want to stay alive but for this problem that seems unsurmountable.

You have to weigh out the measurements exactly and the pill is so tiny I can't do that. I have found many drs that say they help but when u call they refuse because they won't deal with benzos. The others won't take insurance. I can't pay $500 a visit. One wanted $11,000 for one visit. And what can they do. Take me off my meds and leave me like this. There's nothing they can give u. U have to stop all meds. Regular drs will say to give Benadryl propranol or mirtazapine they can make it worse. Read about Dr. Christy Huff. She was put on meds and got akathisia when they took her off without proper taper. Then they put her on propranolol and she finally couldn't take it and killed herself last year. And she as an MD. She didn't even know about these illnesses. And her drs didn't warn her.

 

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Thanks so much, the fact that you care means a lot. Idk if I can find a doctor to help me get off safely, they all follow the pharmaceutical company guidelines about tapering which are actually way off base. Most of the ones I've spoken to get annoyed at me or think I'm crazy.

I haven't been able to work for awhile, I'm basically a leech to my mother and sibling, and I have my own child too. I'm a pathetic disgrace. My mom wants me to go inpatient again to try to get off the seroquel, but I know it's too late. I'm gonna feel the unbearable effects and then I'll be slapped onto another drug . It's so scary but maybe it's my best option.

I also keep feeling like I should have passed away last week. I'm scared to keep living in this state. It's hard to see people getting excited for things when I'm such an anxious mess now. Even leaving the house and having to speak to people sends me into panic bexause I don't want to form any connections and I don't want my family being to comfortable with the fact of me being here. It's hard to explain and is a bizarre feeling. I just don't know what to do, I feel trapped between worlds.

I have tried every resource to find a dr. The ones who take Medicare hang up on me when they hear I'm on a benzo the others charge from $500 to $11,000 for one visit. That's ONE visit. I am in the same state u r in. I am in agony.