ComputerAngel
I'll forgive you even if you die
- Mar 15, 2023
- 10
I really love kikuo's music since it often has dark topics like suicide and abuse
I really love kikuo's music since it often has dark topics like suicide and abuse
It's Mother's Day here. Here's to all the good mothers out there.
Sadbrains
She/They
- Mar 10, 2023
- 50
Long music : Gustav Mahler: Symphony No. 2 "Resurrection" (Lucerne Festival Orchestra, Claudio Abbado) i really like the 1st movement
Short music : PinkPantheress, Sam Gellaitry - Picture in my mind
Short music : PinkPantheress, Sam Gellaitry - Picture in my mind
MentalStefan
Loser
- Jul 3, 2022
- 265
Portishead create such a deep, emotional music. I love every song created by this band. This is one of my favorite, it describes my personal struggles very well. Maybe it's a great choice for CTB'ing?
JJMaynard97
JJ’s Dead Inside, Time to Say Bye Bye!!
- Mar 17, 2023
- 100
I have indeed. The only thing that at the moment helps me feel something and crack a Smile.
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,981
bonerot
people to rot with
- Mar 5, 2023
- 7
My sister introduced me to Dave Bixby forever ago and I have some fond memories attached to this song in particular I want it to be playing while I CTB
merebaisdead
Student
- Mar 19, 2023
- 21
Omg! I thought I heard this before - turns out it was sampled in an asap rocky song! Tbh I defo like this more.
Heres the other version if you're interested
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bonerot
people to rot with
- Mar 5, 2023
- 7
I never heard this before I kinda love it tho the way they sampled it creates a whole different vibe/energy that really works
Tourniquet
Deranged Psychonaut
- Mar 21, 2023
- 11
Everyday just rotting in vain
what's the point
If there is one thing in life that I do still enjoy...it's music
This is one of my favorite songs right now
Gets me everytime. It was the inspiration for my username.
If you like rap this is a deep song I relate to in so many ways, maybe someone else does
Not my favorite but I enjoy the lyrics
This is the first song I ever tried to kill myself to almost 17 years ago now...can't believe it's been that long...why am I still here
The lyrics say "I'll never kill myself to save my soul" but I always change them to "I'm gonna kill myself to save my soul" because I honestly believe the world is better off without me.
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NumbItAll
expendable
- May 20, 2018
- 1,090
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,981
Metallica-Screaming Suicide 
Welcome to this life
Born into the fight
Here to claim your dream
Look you in the eye
Patch the broken sky
Craving dopamine
Then my voice appears
Teaching you of fears
Are you good enough?
You don't recognize
Head is full of lies
You should just give up
Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well
Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide
Curse another day
Spirit locked away
Punish and deprive
Hate to be awake
Living a mistake
More dead than alive
Then a voice appears
Whisper in your ears
"You are good enough"
Throwing down a rope
A lifeline of hope
Never give you up
Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well
Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide
Terrified in sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind
My lying voice inside
Keeps drinking cyanide
And no more can you run
Into the sun
Terrified, sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind
And now you speak my name
You've given back the blame
Keep me deep inside
Don't you keep me inside
Screaming suicide
Now that I'm exposed inside
Shined a light on cyanide
I'm no longer needed here
Now you've faced your biggest fear
Welcome to this life
Born into the fight
Here to claim your dream
Look you in the eye
Patch the broken sky
Craving dopamine
Then my voice appears
Teaching you of fears
Are you good enough?
You don't recognize
Head is full of lies
You should just give up
Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well
Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide
Curse another day
Spirit locked away
Punish and deprive
Hate to be awake
Living a mistake
More dead than alive
Then a voice appears
Whisper in your ears
"You are good enough"
Throwing down a rope
A lifeline of hope
Never give you up
Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well
Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide
Terrified in sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind
My lying voice inside
Keeps drinking cyanide
And no more can you run
Into the sun
Terrified, sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind
And now you speak my name
You've given back the blame
Keep me deep inside
Don't you keep me inside
Screaming suicide
Now that I'm exposed inside
Shined a light on cyanide
I'm no longer needed here
Now you've faced your biggest fear
Tyrone Slothrop
Member
- Mar 10, 2023
- 45
Hitakiri
Melancholy
- Mar 20, 2023
- 58
This is for those of you who feel like you're drowning, and unable to speak. For those of you who.. know loss, a bit better than you'd like to.
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Gloom
Autistic Dumbass
- Sep 20, 2020
- 52
Depresso
Member
- Feb 9, 2023
- 26
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,981
Avatar-The Dirt I'm Burried In
Once upon a highway
Lost among the lights of neon tribes
I used to be a part of you
You used me and I used you too
You took me to the desert
Desecrated, desperate prey, oh yeah
You took me to the desert
I smoke the blackened tissue
High inside the church of the neon lights
I grease my limbs and enter you
The engine roars as engines do
The pressure we are under
Unmarked grave, the undead reign, oh yeah
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
An unknown destination
Tied up in the trunk of a stolen ride
I've never seen a sky so red
Just one more try before we're dead
The ashes in our nostrils
Ask for nothing, act like you're okay
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
A crushing wave
Upon the rocks
A shallow grave
On the coast
I'll wait
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
Once upon a highway
Lost among the lights of neon tribes
I used to be a part of you
You used me and I used you too
You took me to the desert
Desecrated, desperate prey, oh yeah
You took me to the desert
I smoke the blackened tissue
High inside the church of the neon lights
I grease my limbs and enter you
The engine roars as engines do
The pressure we are under
Unmarked grave, the undead reign, oh yeah
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
An unknown destination
Tied up in the trunk of a stolen ride
I've never seen a sky so red
Just one more try before we're dead
The ashes in our nostrils
Ask for nothing, act like you're okay
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
A crushing wave
Upon the rocks
A shallow grave
On the coast
I'll wait
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
Lost in a Dream
He/him - Metal head
- Feb 22, 2020
- 1,744
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,981
Silent Theory-Agony
Now it makes sense
Nothing but the height will test the tension less
It makes me sick (makes me sick)
Now it makes sense
Torn apart at every edge
Just to find where I fit
I found I have nothing to gain
I can't get out of my way
How am I going to change?
It's up to me!
I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down
Oh don't get in my ways
From way up here the fear
Takes the weight off my chest
(Off my chest)
Again it made sense
When I forced the piece to fit the image stuck in my head
I found I have nothing to gain
I can't get out of my way
How am I going to change?
It's up to me!
I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down
Stumbling and staggering deeper into a tragedy
It's killing me and honestly dragging me through the happening
If all I'm ever given is maybe some commonalities
(I won't let you down)
Give me just a second I'm taking it in imagining
That everything I'm gathering's shattering my reality
It's giving me a feeling its motive is to dismantle me
(And I won't let you down)
I won't let you down!
I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down
I couldn't take the word of
I couldn't take the word of
I couldn't take the word of gravity
And now I'm stuck here in the
And now I'm stuck here in the
And now I'm stuck here in the agony
Let me down
Let me down
Now it makes sense
Nothing but the height will test the tension less
It makes me sick (makes me sick)
Now it makes sense
Torn apart at every edge
Just to find where I fit
I found I have nothing to gain
I can't get out of my way
How am I going to change?
It's up to me!
I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down
Oh don't get in my ways
From way up here the fear
Takes the weight off my chest
(Off my chest)
Again it made sense
When I forced the piece to fit the image stuck in my head
I found I have nothing to gain
I can't get out of my way
How am I going to change?
It's up to me!
I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down
Stumbling and staggering deeper into a tragedy
It's killing me and honestly dragging me through the happening
If all I'm ever given is maybe some commonalities
(I won't let you down)
Give me just a second I'm taking it in imagining
That everything I'm gathering's shattering my reality
It's giving me a feeling its motive is to dismantle me
(And I won't let you down)
I won't let you down!
I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down
I couldn't take the word of
I couldn't take the word of
I couldn't take the word of gravity
And now I'm stuck here in the
And now I'm stuck here in the
And now I'm stuck here in the agony
Let me down
Let me down
Concerts and music have been my life since I was in elementary school. With everything going on in life, I've realized I barely listen to music anymore. Even when I'm just laying in bed for days on end. I didn't even realize it. I'm in so much debt from medical bills. Not able to pay for my life currently (meds, dr's, rent, food etc), but what really broke me is realizing I'll never see a concert again.
Myforevercharlie
Global Mod
- Feb 13, 2020
- 3,008
Thanks @Mr2005 , now it's stuck
You'd better hope and pray
That you make it safe back to your own world
You'd better hope and pray
That you'll wake one day in your own world
'Cause when you sleep at night
They don't hear your cries in your own world
Only time will tell
If you can break the spell back in your own world
You'd better hope and pray
That you make it safe back to your own world
You'd better hope and pray
That you'll wake one day in your own world
'Cause when you sleep at night
They don't hear your cries in your own world
Only time will tell
If you can break the spell back in your own world
This song's buildup in the beginning is just magical. Everything in this song just fits together so well, Vic's voice is heavenly and the drums and guitars just amplify the greatness of this song
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,981
MARRS-Pump Up The Volume
Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
(Check it out!)
(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(We gonna get ya!)
(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(Pump that thing!)
(Brothers and sisters)
Pump up the volume
(We gonna get ya!)
(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(Pump, pump, pump, pump me up!)
(Rock the house!)
(Rock the house!)
(Ah, yeah!)
(Ah, yeah!)
(Do it!)
(Do it! Do it!)
(Yeah-da-yeah!)
(Yeah-da-yeah!)
(Now go down, now, now go down)
(Now go down)
(What ya mean?)
(What ya mean?)
(Ow!)
(Let's do it!)
(Do it!)
(Do it!)
Do it!)
(Ow!)
Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
Dance, dance
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
It's just-oh!
It's just-oh!
It's just-oh! It's just-oh!
It's ju- it's ju- it's just begun!
Oh!
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(When the drumbeats go like this!)
Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
Dance, dance
(Din, din, din)
(Da-do-ee-oh)
(Din, din, din)
(Din, din, din)
(Din, din, din)
(Da-do-ee-oh)
Pump up the volume
(Pump up)
(Pump up)
Pump up the volume
(Pump up)
(Pump, pump up)
(Pump... pump up)
(Pump up)
(Pump up)
(Pump, pump, pump up)
(Pump, pump up)
(Pump, pump, pump up)
Pump up the volume
Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
(Check it out!)
(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(We gonna get ya!)
(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(Pump that thing!)
(Brothers and sisters)
Pump up the volume
(We gonna get ya!)
(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(Pump, pump, pump, pump me up!)
(Rock the house!)
(Rock the house!)
(Ah, yeah!)
(Ah, yeah!)
(Do it!)
(Do it! Do it!)
(Yeah-da-yeah!)
(Yeah-da-yeah!)
(Now go down, now, now go down)
(Now go down)
(What ya mean?)
(What ya mean?)
(Ow!)
(Let's do it!)
(Do it!)
(Do it!)
Do it!)
(Ow!)
Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
Dance, dance
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
It's just-oh!
It's just-oh!
It's just-oh! It's just-oh!
It's ju- it's ju- it's just begun!
Oh!
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(When the drumbeats go like this!)
Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
Dance, dance
(Din, din, din)
(Da-do-ee-oh)
(Din, din, din)
(Din, din, din)
(Din, din, din)
(Da-do-ee-oh)
Pump up the volume
(Pump up)
(Pump up)
Pump up the volume
(Pump up)
(Pump, pump up)
(Pump... pump up)
(Pump up)
(Pump up)
(Pump, pump, pump up)
(Pump, pump up)
(Pump, pump, pump up)
Pump up the volume
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,981
From Ashes To New-Hate Me Too
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
I wish that I could see
You're not the one for me
I lost the old you, lost the old me
Found the misery
I wish that you believed
We'll never change a thing
'Cause we been reckless and this mess is
Fucking killing me
Every day sucks when we try to make up
I wanna take drugs so I never wake up
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up that
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too
I wish I had a clue
'Cause you're like a bad tattoo
Yeah I was stupid, can't remove it
Now I'm stuck with you
I wish we would've known
'Cause we're going up in smoke
Just strike the match and turn our backs
Burn down this broken home
Every day sucks when we try to make up
I wanna take drugs so I never wake up
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up that
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too
I wanna get high, yeah, I wanna stay numb
The love never works like the cocaine does
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too
You should hate me too
And you should hate me too
And after all this shit you should hate me too
I wish that I could see
You're not the one for me
I lost the old you, lost the old me
Found the misery
I wish that you believed
We'll never change a thing
'Cause we been reckless and this mess is
Fucking killing me
Every day sucks when we try to make up
I wanna take drugs so I never wake up
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up that
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too
I wish I had a clue
'Cause you're like a bad tattoo
Yeah I was stupid, can't remove it
Now I'm stuck with you
I wish we would've known
'Cause we're going up in smoke
Just strike the match and turn our backs
Burn down this broken home
Every day sucks when we try to make up
I wanna take drugs so I never wake up
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up that
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too
I wanna get high, yeah, I wanna stay numb
The love never works like the cocaine does
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too
You should hate me too
And you should hate me too
Danyyyyy
Yippee
- Mar 19, 2023
- 72
I love this song so much cuz it's so catchy and so random with it's lyrics and noises throughout the song
Though at the same time the message is being ghosted on text, and that kinda makes sense with them name
It reminds me of how I used to text my friends all the time until 1 am, until now when it's little by little throughout the day, it's still great though :3
Lost in a Dream
He/him - Metal head
- Feb 22, 2020
- 1,744
MARRS-Pump Up The Volume
Their official music video is trippy! Loved it lol.
Rocinante
My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
- Aug 26, 2022
- 1,449
youwantitdarker
Member
- Feb 18, 2023
- 42
Love Portishead! Fell in love with them a couple of years ago, their music spoke to me. This one's my favourite:
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,981
Underoath-Let Go
Teach me to let go
I'm overrated and insecure
I keep on running but there's never a door
Nothing's changed, I feel the same
I'm the one to blame
So hear me out
I can dance up against the flame
I've given up on what they say is safe
I've always felt a little better this way
What's the use when nothing's new?
Is there any truth?
Oh God I'm begging you
I could use a little peace these days
Any help to sleep it all away
I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame
I wish I could just wake me up
Then I could just save myself from you
I know it doesn't make sense to you
It's just the empty thing I have to do
Overrated, overrated (No hope)
Tie me up, so tie me up (With no rope)
So say the words that you have to say
Even though I'm not listening
I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame
You don't have to remind me
I know I'm a failure now
I wish you'd ignore me
'Cause I'll only bring you down
I'm the one that falls apart
I'm the one that breaks your heart
I'm living in the dark
You don't have to remind me (I fall apart)
I know I'm a failure now (I break your heart)
I wish you'd ignore me (I fall apart)
'Cause I'll only bring you down
(I break your heart, I fall apart)
'Cause I'll only bring you down
(I break your heart, I fall apart)
Pull myself out the lifeboat
Tie myself up with no rope
Go to heaven with no hope
Won't you teach me to let go?
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame
Teach me to let go
I'm overrated and insecure
I keep on running but there's never a door
Nothing's changed, I feel the same
I'm the one to blame
So hear me out
I can dance up against the flame
I've given up on what they say is safe
I've always felt a little better this way
What's the use when nothing's new?
Is there any truth?
Oh God I'm begging you
I could use a little peace these days
Any help to sleep it all away
I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame
I wish I could just wake me up
Then I could just save myself from you
I know it doesn't make sense to you
It's just the empty thing I have to do
Overrated, overrated (No hope)
Tie me up, so tie me up (With no rope)
So say the words that you have to say
Even though I'm not listening
I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame
You don't have to remind me
I know I'm a failure now
I wish you'd ignore me
'Cause I'll only bring you down
I'm the one that falls apart
I'm the one that breaks your heart
I'm living in the dark
You don't have to remind me (I fall apart)
I know I'm a failure now (I break your heart)
I wish you'd ignore me (I fall apart)
'Cause I'll only bring you down
(I break your heart, I fall apart)
'Cause I'll only bring you down
(I break your heart, I fall apart)
Pull myself out the lifeboat
Tie myself up with no rope
Go to heaven with no hope
Won't you teach me to let go?
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame
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