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bug_muncher
everything is confusing~
- Sep 20, 2023
- 5
I just wanted to write this to share my experiences and hopefully connect with others like me. First of all, I want to say I am not diagnosed with anything and I'm not claiming to have any specific disorders, but I just suspect it.
I have known that I tend to "switch" from different identities for a few years now. The main one (that actually created this account) used to be very suicidal and still is at times. He hates being like this and not having control over his life. I used to take over when he was stressed, or try to talk him out of attempts but recently I have given up. I am also tired of being like this. Being scared I will lose control of myself, and not even knowing why I am like this or what caused this, or how to fix it. I am ashamed of the way I am, and I don't even know why... Feeling like I'm always missing something, like I'm not a real person but a fragment of one or of what was supposed to be.
I started being suicidal at the age of 9, but I don't know what caused me to start thinking about that or even what kind of child I was. If anyone can relate, I'd love to hear your stories!
I have known that I tend to "switch" from different identities for a few years now. The main one (that actually created this account) used to be very suicidal and still is at times. He hates being like this and not having control over his life. I used to take over when he was stressed, or try to talk him out of attempts but recently I have given up. I am also tired of being like this. Being scared I will lose control of myself, and not even knowing why I am like this or what caused this, or how to fix it. I am ashamed of the way I am, and I don't even know why... Feeling like I'm always missing something, like I'm not a real person but a fragment of one or of what was supposed to be.
I started being suicidal at the age of 9, but I don't know what caused me to start thinking about that or even what kind of child I was. If anyone can relate, I'd love to hear your stories!