I can relate to hating social media. I've suspended, deleted, and reenabled my accounts. Then I suspended, deleted, and reenabled them all over again. I've learned to just let them stay open and not use them. Even opening Facebook makes me feel avoidant and paranoid. I wish I could just use them normally and set it down but I can't. It also sucks to feel like I don't really have anything to post or talk about. The funny thing is I think this might be everybody's experience but some people have just learned to keep using it. That's why they still post stupid memes all day. I don't know. Some people say the same kind of thing about drinking alcohol. I've learned the hard way over and over that I'm not a person who can just drink normally. Everybody else might be able to but I don't seem to be everybody.