Most of your waking hours what you feel?

[iwanttodie019]

1)Pleasure
2)Nothing
3)Suffering

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Nothing, with a side of suffering.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Seered Doom]

Shit

 

[wham311]

Suffering. Every moment.

 

[Alexandra0]

3. I'm trapped

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Bored.

Bored.

Hungry.

High.

Sleep.

Repeat.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

Suffering
Desperation
Hopelessness

 

[FoxSauce]

Tired
More sleep

 

[darksouls]

only my physical pain confirms to me that I am alive
I already feel dead inside
I feel lonely
and as if I have done everything wrong in my entire life that one could possibly do wrong

 

[Rynalia]

Nothing, usually.

I wish I could feel something though. Even something negative would be okay.

 

[Forever Sleep]

If I'm unable to distract myself: Suicidal, resentful, fed up, exhausted.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Frustration...
In a way i procrastinate so much that i could accomplish so much ..

22years of Loss...
A youmg woman now.. that i will never really know and the time stolen from me ..and her .. my daughter ...

Time...
The time i have taken away from my own clock.. i feel it. Inside me ...imagine a wind up clock .. that the ticks slow missing a step every hours.. my health ..like a clock is slowly going quiet..but with each lost tick i feel the frustration and most of all the loss

 

[wham311]

Every piece of information I receive is bad. This has been going on since October 4.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existing will always and only be suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, all I want is to never suffer again but of course all the suffering just continues

For me only non-existence is positive, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me with no more pain and no more suffering, I find it so deeply undesirable to exist and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone. I just want to never suffer ever again, for me wanting to cease existing is a response to existence itself and I'll just always see it as an abomination to be burdened with this existence with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I just suffer so much from being trapped in this existence so cruelly denied the option to cease existing painlessly, I find it so terrifying and unbearable how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age.

 

[Namelesa]

depends on the day cus of high mood swings. most hours have some tiredness/exhaustion and neutral/existing with some having anxiousness/paranoid, emptiness, suffering/despair or maybe if some happiness/feelings of content

 

[Bowerbird]

Tired all the time, even if all I do is sleep.
I have so little energy I can barely even get out of bed and I just want to fall asleep all the time and can't even shower or make a sandwich.

 

[wham311]

Every moment is like a channel on TV showing something disturbing and it gets worse as you keep flipping through trying to find something else

Every moment for the next 50 years and no one can save you, in fact everyone hates you

I am not joking I am in hell

 

[33K1LLM3]

1). Reaping pain.
2). A sense of comfort daydreaming about my perfect life.
3). Hardcore sadness

 

[22yearsbroken]

Frustration...
In a way i procrastinate so much that i could accomplish so much ..

22years of Loss...
A youmg woman now.. that i will never really know and the time stolen from me ..and her .. my daughter ...

Time...
The time i have taken away from my own clock.. i feel it. Inside me ...imagine a wind up clock .. that the ticks slow missing a step every hours.. my health ..like a clock is slowly going quiet..but with each lost tick i feel the frustration and most of all the loss

Tempus e damnum nostrum est ...nomquam capere possumos quod poat nos tenemus

 

[Dejected 55]

Numbness and also somehow intense internal pain. My heart and soul aches for the person I cannot be and the person I cannot have here with me. I feel alone and in a limbo where I don't live and yet I cannot yet die. I have almost no hope at all, but the tiny bit of hope left keeps me from doing anything to end the pain. I am scared of running out of money, which will happen soon. I am hyper-vigilant about my finances anyway, but especially so as they dwindle to nothing. I am isolated except when I must go out for something I need to sustain me until the end. I am scared of actually ending it, but know that I need to... I am scared that I will fail when I try, I am scared that I will not be able to try when the time comes. I am scared of being somehow interrupted. I go to bed every night hoping I do not wake up, but knowing that I will... and I wake up every day disappointed and miserable that I didn't die in my sleep. Nothing I say or do matters or moves the needle in the slightest. I do not matter to anyone else, and I barely matter to myself anymore. All this and more, every day.