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YellowJasmine

YellowJasmine

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Have met several here who either are planning on using morphine or are curious about it, @MsM3talGamer being one important such <3

I myself am planning on using it, and have come up with quite many questions and things to consider, so I thought it might be a good idea to share some knowledge, experience, answers and all related to morphine here.

@Jonjon was very helpful yesterday with sharing his knowledge and answering so many questions, but I think it may be relevant to others here as well and I'd very much like to hear everyone's experiences, thoughts and even anecdotal tales about the subject too!

Here are some things I'm contemplating at the moment:

1) How long does it take for morphine to take effect, when will I feel it after taking it? (for me personally, it's a very large dose of about 2 whole grams + ginger beer - and I am very sensitive to alcohol)

2) I understand it will be a relaxing feeling, pleasurable for some - but at what point will the effects start to change/become different? At what point will the breathing start to become labored and how will that feel? When will I puke? And can metoclopramide be sufficient to avoid it? (For those aware of the risks with meto, you're welcome to share your thoughts about that as well!)

3) When will I black out? Or will I black out at all or will I be conscious the whole time?

4) How long should I remain out of reach of medical help - I know that Narcan can be administered effectively and wake you up even at very late stages - what would be most secure a timeline?

Feel free to add your own questions and thoughts, personal experiences with morphine, morphine OD's, reddit posts or articles related to the topic are most welcome here.

I think that's the overall gist of it, thank you!
 
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MsM3talGamer

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Thanks for this post! <3 Full of questions that I hope people can help us with. I will be taking a morphine OD by the end of February. I've found that there doesn't seem to be much info on morphine compared to other methods.
 
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Have met several here who either are planning on using morphine or are curious about it, @MsM3talGamer being one important such <3

I myself am planning on using it, and have come up with quite many questions and things to consider, so I thought it might be a good idea to share some knowledge, experience, answers and all related to morphine here.

@Jonjon was very helpful yesterday with sharing his knowledge and answering so many questions, but I think it may be relevant to others here as well and I'd very much like to hear everyone's experiences, thoughts and even anecdotal tales about the subject too!

Here are some things I'm contemplating at the moment:

1) How long does it take for morphine to take effect, when will I feel it after taking it? (for me personally, it's a very large dose of about 2 whole grams + ginger beer - and I am very sensitive to alcohol)

2) I understand it will be a relaxing feeling, pleasurable for some - but at what point will the effects start to change/become different? At what point will the breathing start to become labored and how will that feel? When will I puke? And can metoclopramide be sufficient to avoid it? (For those aware of the risks with meto, you're welcome to share your thoughts about that as well!)

3) When will I black out? Or will I black out at all or will I be conscious the whole time?

4) How long should I remain out of reach of medical help - I know that Narcan can be administered effectively and wake you up even at very late stages - what would be most secure a timeline?

Feel free to add your own questions and thoughts, personal experiences with morphine, morphine OD's, reddit posts or articles related to the topic are most welcome here.

I think that's the overall gist of it, thank you!

1) You're taking it orally? On an empty stomach, it'll hit you in 15-20 min, maybe sooner. You will at least start to feel the effects, and with that much, it's probably going to hit you like a ton of bricks.

2) You may or may not vomit. Chances are good that you will; I don't know how much the meto will mitigate that with such a large dose. If you want, you can lie on your side to lessen the chance of choking on your own emesis... or take your chances, because that can kill you, too. You will be completely unconscious long before your breathing becomes labored.

3) You're going to feel euphoric, rapidly drowsy, then unconscious in very rapid succession. I'd be amazed if you remained conscious past 30 minutes.

4) I just don't know how long it'll take to lose your respiratory drive. I would imagine in under an hour, but I'd allow several to be sure.
 
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1) You're taking it orally? On an empty stomach, it'll hit you in 15-20 min, maybe sooner. You will at least start to feel the effects, and with that much, it's probably going to hit you like a ton of bricks.

2) You may or may not vomit. Chances are good that you will; I don't know how much the meto will mitigate that with such a large dose. If you want, you can lie on your side to lessen the chance of choking on your own emesis... or take your chances, because that can kill you, too. You will be completely unconscious long before your breathing becomes labored.

3) You're going to feel euphoric, rapidly drowsy, then unconscious in very rapid succession. I'd be amazed if you remained conscious past 30 minutes.

4) I just don't know how long it'll take to lose your respiratory drive. I would imagine in under an hour, but I'd allow several to be sure.

Yes, oral route in ginger beer. (small amount of beer to be sure I'll be able to down it)

Thank you so much for your answers, it is very much appreciated!
 
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Kingkelly

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Sounds peaceful ❤
 
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Morphine song

 
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tevati

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We had this already several times, it's not heroin or morphine you want fentanyl. Heroin is more effectiv, than morphine if you don't inject the morphine you don't need even try.
 
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We had this already several times, it's not heroin or morphine you want fentanyl. Heroin is more effectiv, than morphine if you don't inject the morphine you don't need even try.
Thanks for your input although misinformed.. :)

First of all, fentanyl is banned from the reliable darknet markets. Heroin is unreliable with the content. And morphine is very often used successfully for euthanasia. I've been informed by both a surgeon AND a doctor (plus Gingerplum here on the thread who is a nurse!) here on the site that it is certainly doable - especially with the ridiculous dose I am using.

Just because PPH and Nietchke doesnt advocate it, it doesnt mean its not a valuable method. Many a (wo)man has died from morphine overdose.
 
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First of all, fentanyl is banned from the reliable darknet markets. Heroin is unreliable with the content. And morphine is very often used successfully for euthanasia. I've been informed by both a surgeon AND a doctor (plus Gingerplum here on the thread who is a nurse!) here on the site that it is certainly doable - especially with the ridiculous dose I am using.

Just because PPH and Nietchke doesnt advocate it, it doesnt mean its not a valuable method. Many a (wo)man has died from morphine overdose.

Absolutely. People die from prescription (non-fentanyl) opiate overdoses every single day. Morphine is not a drug to be trifled with.
 
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I'm hoping I can add one question to this -- how much morphine are you planning to take in and where are you getting it from?
Thanks in advance!
 
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I'm hoping I can add one question to this -- how much morphine are you planning to take in and where are you getting it from?
Thanks in advance!

Sure, all questions are welcome!

For me personally, I'm going for an overkill with 2 grams + a little alcohol. I got mine from the darknet. I know there are regular dealers (those that sell pot or xanax or other opiates to you or your slightly drughappy friends) that also some times sell morph.
Others go to their doctor with severe pains and get them prescribed - or already have a prescription and decide to save and make a stash.
 
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Jonjon

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We had this already several times, it's not heroin or morphine you want fentanyl. Heroin is more effectiv, than morphine if you don't inject the morphine you don't need even try.

Fentanyl is generally found in trauma wards and post op pain management and it is strictly controlled due to how easy it is to OD on it, as little as 0.25g can cause severe CNS depression. An average person cannot be expected to get their hands on a pure product. Good luck getting that shit in liquid form, damn near impossible.

While the bioavailability of opiates is certainly lower when ingested compared to IV administration, telling people they shouldn't even bother is just ignorant. It's all dose related, and 2.2 grams is a massive fucking dose for morphine sulphate.
 
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tammyot

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Sure, all questions are welcome!

For me personally, I'm going for an overkill with 2 grams + a little alcohol. I got mine from the darknet. I know there are regular dealers (those that sell pot or xanax or other opiates to you or your slightly drughappy friends) that also some times sell morph.
Others go to their doctor with severe pains and get them prescribed - or already have a prescription and decide to save and make a stash.

Hi Jasmine, couldn't message you as no option. Was hoping to find out what seller you brought the morphine from and did you use a VPN or just something like Tor? I read that you want to test it first just to make sure of quality. Anyway not sure how much you can say in the public setting?
 
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I'll send you a dm tomorrow!

Hi Jasmine, couldn't message you as no option. Was hoping to find out what seller you brought the morphine from and did you use a VPN or just something like Tor? I read that you want to test it first just to make sure of quality. Anyway not sure how much you can say in the public setting?
 
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GeorgeEastman

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Sep 3, 2018
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Whenever I get cancer, I'm gonna walk in Hospice and say crank this shit up. Let's get morphined to death. That's what I'm waiting on now since I guess I'm too chicken shit for hanging or a gun.

That's too damn long to wait. I don't see it lasting, but if it does I will demand the morphine at Hospice.
 
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@gingerplum is right, you'll be knocked out before you feel any labored breathing. You'll just feel really good and then fall asleep. I've ODed on opiates several times and when I've been brought back with fucking Narcan, I barely even remember what happened. I got Narcaned at least a day after I used (I think I was just going through the withdrawal funk, but I blacked out and didn't know a timeline), so that could be an issue if you survive and go in later. I've come to realize that medical "professionals" love to administer Narcan with so much as your eyes being pinned if they suspect anything.
 
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TiredHorse

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a very large dose of about 2 whole grams + ginger beer - and I am very sensitive to alcohol
Just a small detail I'm confused about: the various brands of ginger beer I grew up with are non-alcoholic --it's just very spicy ginger ale. Is what you have something different? Either way, is the alcohol important to your method, or are you just using the ginger to soothe your stomach? If the latter, you might want to let some of the fizz go out of the ginger beer to reduce the chances of it making you burp/puke.
 
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YellowJasmine

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Just a small detail I'm confused about: the various brands of ginger beer I grew up with are non-alcoholic --it's just very spicy ginger ale. Is what you have something different? Either way, is the alcohol important to your method, or are you just using the ginger to soothe your stomach? If the latter, you might want to let some of the fizz go out of the ginger beer to reduce the chances of it making you burp/puke.

I have been searching for alcoholic ginger beers, and they do exist :)

Yes, well - the alcohol is a potentiator to morphine, but with this dose I doubt it is even necessary. With lower doses it would be more of a crucial element in the setup. Still, I will be going with an alcoholic brew.

I really don't like too much bubbles in my drinks, I even let sparkling water out without a cap on for it to settle somewhat before I drink - as I don't like burping (unnecessarily lol) :) Thanks for the note though, good thing to keep in mind!
 
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@gingerplum is right, you'll be knocked out before you feel any labored breathing. You'll just feel really good and then fall asleep. I've ODed on opiates several times and when I've been brought back with fucking Narcan, I barely even remember what happened. I got Narcaned at least a day after I used (I think I was just going through the withdrawal funk, but I blacked out and didn't know a timeline), so that could be an issue if you survive and go in later. I've come to realize that medical "professionals" love to administer Narcan with so much as your eyes being pinned if they suspect anything.

That's a comforting message to read - the very first part anyway! I have to admit, I have read a single report about someone who OD'd on opioids and remainded conscious through it - basically they called it "manual breathing" where they had to force them selves to breathe, other wise they felt like choking.. >.< Sorry to mention this disturbing case, but again, it's calming to hear a different version too.

I am going to be extremely cautious about choosing my ctb environment with regards to being found or Narcaned back to - this existence.

Thank you so very much for sharing your experience, it's much appreciated!
 
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I'm planning on taking SN along with morphine and dilaudid and methadone. I can't recall exactly how much morphine and methadone I have right now (a good bit of it is expired - at least, about half my morphine is expired and the methadone is all expired) but I'm prescribed dilaudid and morphine every month and the amount I get when I fill it is 240mg dilaudid (which I know isn't a ton but should help) and 1.8g morphine. I have another (expired but full) bottle of morphine in a lock box.

I haven't 100% decided but I'm thinking of doing it in an enema so I don't have to worry about throwing up. I have a really sensitive stomach at the best of times and while I have meto I think I want to err on the safe side.

ETA I plan to OD at home, when I don't have anyone expecting to see me for a few days. So I don't have to worry about narcan or the fix for SN (can't remember what it's called...methylin blue? Something like that?). I have narcan at home just in case I change my mind (though the SN pretty much nixes that) in inject-able form because my doctor "felt more comfortable" knowing I had it as I've sort of on the DL mentioned I mess with my dosages sometimes to try and get more relief.
 
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I have read a single report about someone who OD'd on opioids and remainded conscious through it - basically they called it "manual breathing" where they had to force them selves to breathe, other wise they felt like choking.. >.<
 
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I'm planning on taking SN along with morphine and dilaudid and methadone. I can't recall exactly how much morphine and methadone I have right now (a good bit of it is expired - at least, about half my morphine is expired and the methadone is all expired) but I'm prescribed dilaudid and morphine every month and the amount I get when I fill it is 240mg dilaudid (which I know isn't a ton but should help) and 1.8g morphine. I have another (expired but full) bottle of morphine in a lock box.

I haven't 100% decided but I'm thinking of doing it in an enema so I don't have to worry about throwing up. I have a really sensitive stomach at the best of times and while I have meto I think I want to err on the safe side.

ETA I plan to OD at home, when I don't have anyone expecting to see me for a few days. So I don't have to worry about narcan or the fix for SN (can't remember what it's called...methylin blue? Something like that?). I have narcan at home just in case I change my mind (though the SN pretty much nixes that) in inject-able form because my doctor "felt more comfortable" knowing I had it as I've sort of on the DL mentioned I mess with my dosages sometimes to try and get more relief.
You get prescribed dilaudid? Lucky!
 
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lost_soul83

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1) You're taking it orally? On an empty stomach, it'll hit you in 15-20 min, maybe sooner. You will at least start to feel the effects, and with that much, it's probably going to hit you like a ton of bricks.

2) You may or may not vomit. Chances are good that you will; I don't know how much the meto will mitigate that with such a large dose. If you want, you can lie on your side to lessen the chance of choking on your own emesis... or take your chances, because that can kill you, too. You will be completely unconscious long before your breathing becomes labored.

3) You're going to feel euphoric, rapidly drowsy, then unconscious in very rapid succession. I'd be amazed if you remained conscious past 30 minutes.

4) I just don't know how long it'll take to lose your respiratory drive. I would imagine in under an hour, but I'd allow several to be sure.
So you're a nurse? I'm thinking of using methadone to ctb. I have a tolerance, as I've been taking it for over 5 years. Should I add some more opioids to make sure I OD? I'm planning on taking 1300mg of liquid methadone at once. What are your thoughts? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
 
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lost_soul83

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Sure, all questions are welcome!

For me personally, I'm going for an overkill with 2 grams + a little alcohol. I got mine from the darknet. I know there are regular dealers (those that sell pot or xanax or other opiates to you or your slightly drughappy friends) that also some times sell morph.
Others go to their doctor with severe pains and get them prescribed - or already have a prescription and decide to save and make a stash.
Would you be willing to tell me how to get on the darknet and get what I need? I too would like to ctb by ODing on opioids. Any help you'd be willing to give me would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
 
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lost_soul83

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I'm planning on taking SN along with morphine and dilaudid and methadone. I can't recall exactly how much morphine and methadone I have right now (a good bit of it is expired - at least, about half my morphine is expired and the methadone is all expired) but I'm prescribed dilaudid and morphine every month and the amount I get when I fill it is 240mg dilaudid (which I know isn't a ton but should help) and 1.8g morphine. I have another (expired but full) bottle of morphine in a lock box.

I haven't 100% decided but I'm thinking of doing it in an enema so I don't have to worry about throwing up. I have a really sensitive stomach at the best of times and while I have meto I think I want to err on the safe side.

ETA I plan to OD at home, when I don't have anyone expecting to see me for a few days. So I don't have to worry about narcan or the fix for SN (can't remember what it's called...methylin blue? Something like that?). I have narcan at home just in case I change my mind (though the SN pretty much nixes that) in inject-able form because my doctor "felt more comfortable" knowing I had it as I've sort of on the DL mentioned I mess with my dosages sometimes to try and get more relief.
Not to be nosy, but how did you get prescribed so much pain medication at one time? What condition are you suffering from?
 
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So you're a nurse? I'm thinking of using methadone to ctb. I have a tolerance, as I've been taking it for over 5 years. Should I add some more opioids to make sure I OD? I'm planning on taking 1300mg of liquid methadone at once. What are your thoughts? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
Right?! While we're picking your brain @gingerplum, do you know the longest amount of time an opioid can have be used for Narcan to work? As mentioned above, it was used on me once when I hadn't used that day, but didn't know the timeline of what happened the week before bc I blacked out.
 
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lost_soul83

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Would you be willing to tell me how to get on the darknet and get what I need? I too would like to ctb by ODing on opioids. Any help you'd be willing to give me would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
Know anything about methadone? I'm thinking of taking 1300mg at once to ctb. Don't know if it'll be enough cuz I've been on the stuff for over 5 years so I've got quite a tolerance. Do you think that will be enough for me? Thanks!
 
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Right?! While we're picking your brain @gingerplum, do you know the longest amount of time an opioid can have be used for Narcan to work? As mentioned above, it was used on me once when I hadn't used that day, but didn't know the timeline of what happened the week before bc I blacked out.

I think the narcan will work as long as there's opiates in your system, regardless of how long they've been there.
 
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So you're a nurse? I'm thinking of using methadone to ctb. I have a tolerance, as I've been taking it for over 5 years. Should I add some more opioids to make sure I OD? I'm planning on taking 1300mg of liquid methadone at once. What are your thoughts? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Having a tolerance makes a huge difference... it would be ideal if you could wean it off or at least down before attempting anything. This is how people like Phillip Seymore Hoffman die; he had lost his tolerance when he started to use again. As far as the dosage goes, it's really almost impossible to speculate when someone is habituated to it. Wish I could help more!
 
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I think the narcan will work as long as there's opiates in your system, regardless of how long they've been there.
Argh, I suspected as such! Ooooh, that sadist doctor! I've read that it can hurt your hands and feet, is that correct? I had my foot injury (sprained ankle, cut off circulation to my foot), and when she gave it to me the second time, it hurt my foot so bad, I was sobbing. I could honestly ctb if I thought about that situation for a long time.
 
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