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Starry Starry

Member
Aug 22, 2022
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Well, I am ready to go. Actually in all honesty I have been ready for years. But now I feel very serene about the situation. Plans are made it may take about two weeks, but I'm very patient knowing that I'll not have to deal with the shit this world has handed me.. I've been on this site before (for a very long time), but got off because of an incident that happened with another individual who was on the site but was not suicidal - he was just trolling for women who were "his type." I complained to admin and she did nothing but made fun of me (not a smart thing to do as I was pretty suicidal at the time). But I'm giving this a second chance because of all the great people I previously met and the true support of those people. I hope to keep in touch with as many of you as want to "talk." You all were a huge support system to me before and I hope you will continue. THank you. Starry
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,514
Welcome back. I envy your serenity .... I have a screaming urge to flee pain. It was suppised to be over but my mistake made it so much worse... I wish I had resolve... Solutions... Health... An off switch...
 
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Starry Starry

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Aug 22, 2022
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Welcome back. I envy your serenity .... I have a screaming urge to flee pain. It was suppised to be over but my mistake made it so much worse... I wish I had resolve... Solutions... Health... An off switch...
My serenity has come from years of wanting and needing to ctb. I am now at a point in life where I know I'm totally ready. Now I just need to be patient and let nature take its course. I have no one on this side - all the people who love me are waiting for me. That is a huge motivating force. You may not really be ready yet. When you're ready the peace that you will feel is overwhelming. I wish you nothing but peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I can imagine that it must be such a relief to feel at peace with everything. I think that for many it can be comforting having a method by their side that they feel confident that it will succeed. I particularly envy those with N. It really is such an cruel and unfair world and life does just seem to be endless suffering with no relief. I look forward to the day in which I will finally be free from everything. I hope that you find freedom from what you are going through, best wishes.
 
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Starry Starry

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Aug 22, 2022
18
I can imagine that it must be such a relief to feel at peace with everything. I think that for many it can be comforting having a method by their side that they feel confident that it will succeed. I particularly envy those with N. It really is such an cruel and unfair world and life does just seem to be endless suffering with no relief. I look forward to the day in which I will finally be free from everything. I hope that you find freedom from what you are going through, best wishes.
Hello Funeral City! You were one of the wonderful people I used to talk to all the time. I hope you are well.
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Cautionary Tale
Mar 11, 2022
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Hello again! I remember you. ["Welcome back" doesn't seem like the proper greeting for the occasion, but I don't know what the proper greeting would be, so....]
 
GettingOut

GettingOut

I'm not worth any tears
Aug 16, 2022
124
Hello Starry. I admire and envy your peace. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and help me have I sight in the stages we go through on our wat to ctb. You are content, full of gratitude and kindness. I hope I'll feel the same when my time comes. Lots of love
 

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