Venting Mood Swing, i guess, IDK

[iDesireDeath]

my so called "loved ones", and people who "care about me" should be grateful for the fact that i didn't kill myself already.
i never asked to be born and yet, here i am, forced to be "responsible",
i didn't bring myself into this world, my parents did, and now i have to bear this life.
i am just a fucking asset to them.
i never wanted any of this, i don't want to go to a "premier/prestigious" college, i don't want a "high paying" job,

but i also don't want to die, in my 18 years if living, i have acquired many interests. i have dreams, that i want to see myself achieve.
but i don't want to live either!

i wish i was aborted, or died at infancy.

 

[Worndown]

Mood swings are real. At 18 you are in the prime years for things to get out of balance.
Can you pick out triggers that drive you to feel like this?
Have you sought help?
Focus on your interests and dreams. If you die, they go with you.
Check out you options before you go to the bus stop