Misplaced feelings of contempt (personality disorder?)

[metfan647]

Why do I find myself developing a deep dislike for people around me for seemingly unwarranted reasons? Is this part of 'black or white thinking'?

The latest is my boss. I find her brash and overly assertive when she speaks (bordering on aggressive). Why do I spend so much time and energy labelling her in my head as the enemy and someone worthy of my contempt? Am I misoginistic? Would an overly assertive male boss bother me as much? Perhaps but I can candidly say her traits are not befitting or a woman. I'm only being honest with myself.

We have a very young University student trying to get experience in the office. A very shy sweet-natured girl and she insists on speaking to her in a jackhammer-esque fashion. How is that going to inspire her? Maybe I'm being hyperensitive and nobody else would be in the least bit bothered.

She speaks at 100MPH like a drill sergeant or an SS trooper barking orders at inferiors.

Why am I being so hypervigilant? Why can't I just not give this a second thought? I mean, there are no repressed desires at all towards her (at least not on a conscious level) so why so I let this bother me so much? She alone will make me hate this place.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I've always been like this. Feeling superior to others for no real reason. This attitude has a lot to do with how I misspent my life. Always thought my big inevitable blossoming was about to come.

 

[metfan647]

I don't know if I do feel superior to her. She is definitely far smarter and ruthless than I can be in public. She knows the area of work way better than me. Maybe I feel some sort of moral superiority. Maybe I'm not self-aware enough to recognise that consciously.