futurebuscatcher
Cat Connoisseur
- Sep 15, 2024
- 91
Happy holidays everyone!
It's not much and this is very spontaneous as I'm currently doing this but I have finally found time to mess with the noose I got a little more. It's been crazily busy.
I can't really do a proper suspension at all in this damned place, so I'm probably going to have to experiment a bit with techniques. I'm thinking a kneel to a bow (unlikely at all to work but still fun to mess with.) So far my anchor point seems to be really good. There's no way for me to actually kill myself here yet as it's just me strangling myself.
As I type this I still feel the sensation of being choked and the rope around my neck when I only did the smallest tug. I'm excited since it seems that I may actually be able to get the technique down properly! Still gonna mess with it a bit– I'm curious on what it would take to get rope burn or a minor brushes but this may not be the best idea.
Hopefully soon I'll be able to really do it and get the time to make a semi proper attempt and do the live post, but for now, cheers.
It's not the update most of yall wanted but I still wanted to share my progress. I'm glad that I can work myself up into hysteria. I feel oddly giddy. I think if I keep doing these practices it's gonna end up replacing my SI with pure glee.
I hope when the time comes I can really do it and work myself into insanity and fully commit.
There's still some things in unsure to do still like cleaning my house or even fully completing my suicide note before I do it. Maybe even going off meds but it doesn't seem worth it to do it. Idk guys this is getting long
Happy holidays once more
It's not much and this is very spontaneous as I'm currently doing this but I have finally found time to mess with the noose I got a little more. It's been crazily busy.
I can't really do a proper suspension at all in this damned place, so I'm probably going to have to experiment a bit with techniques. I'm thinking a kneel to a bow (unlikely at all to work but still fun to mess with.) So far my anchor point seems to be really good. There's no way for me to actually kill myself here yet as it's just me strangling myself.
As I type this I still feel the sensation of being choked and the rope around my neck when I only did the smallest tug. I'm excited since it seems that I may actually be able to get the technique down properly! Still gonna mess with it a bit– I'm curious on what it would take to get rope burn or a minor brushes but this may not be the best idea.
Hopefully soon I'll be able to really do it and get the time to make a semi proper attempt and do the live post, but for now, cheers.
It's not the update most of yall wanted but I still wanted to share my progress. I'm glad that I can work myself up into hysteria. I feel oddly giddy. I think if I keep doing these practices it's gonna end up replacing my SI with pure glee.
I hope when the time comes I can really do it and work myself into insanity and fully commit.
There's still some things in unsure to do still like cleaning my house or even fully completing my suicide note before I do it. Maybe even going off meds but it doesn't seem worth it to do it. Idk guys this is getting long
Happy holidays once more
