Mental illness is fucking me up

[Smashingairwaves]

I assume most of us have some variety of mental illness, right? Isn't that why we're here?

Every time I start to feel even a tiny bit better depression comes crashing down and makes me feel bad again.

I just got some good news, and I feel empty. I barely even feel good about it, even though I want to.

I just feel passively suicidal. One day I will kill myself. Until then I subsist.

I genuinely want to feel better. My brain just doesn't agree.

You know what I mean?

 

[randomz]

I absolutely know what you mean, I am in the same boat as you. Mental health problems suck, why can't our brains just be.....normal and work as intended?

 

[Smashingairwaves]

I absolutely know what you mean, I am in the same boat as you. Mental health problems suck, why can't our brains just be.....normal and work as intended?

Ahh, to have a normal functioning brain! What a dream, lmao

 

[Mr2005]

If you think it's a mental illness then you should be alright. Just take some medication and see if your mood lifts

 

[Smashingairwaves]

If you think it's a mental illness then you should be alright. Just take some medication and see if your mood lifts

I am on medication. I have tried many. Unfortunately it's not that simple

 

[TimeTheTaleWereTold]

If you think it's a mental illness then you should be alright. Just take some medication and see if your mood lifts

if only it were that easy...

 

[randomz]

I am on medication. I have tried many. Unfortunately it's not that simple

I just started my medication treatment, and for those couple of days I haven't seen any change. I hope the effect of the meds get stronger with time.

 

[TimeTheTaleWereTold]

I just started my medication treatment, and for those couple of days I haven't seen any change. I hope the effect of the meds get stronger with time.

meds can take a couple of weeks for the effects to fully kick in - i hope they work out for you!

 

[randomz]

meds can take a couple of weeks for the effects to fully kick in - i hope they work out for you!

Thank you!

 

[theguineapigking]

Meds can even take months. I tried Zoloft for at least 4 months. My mom and dad pushed me to. I was on like 150 mg at one point(I'm a guy that weighs around 140 lbs). It may have helped some(my parents think so). But I got mad at the fact I was still alive and threw out the bottle. I quit cold turkey. Never noticed withdrawal.
Hopefully your meds help you randomz. It'd be cool if you found something that helps you as well smashingairwaves. Sometimes you have to try multiple meds. I wish it was easy.


I get what you mean about being suicidal on and off like that,smashing. Sometimes good things happen to me and it makes me feel even more depressed,instead of feeling simply happy. I don't want to be happy and become another mindless drone in society... that's me personally. Hopefully you manage to cheer up somehow in the meantime(I know,it's hard). Watching comedy cartoons is really fun..it can distract me from thinking of the rope In my basement.


I'm here if you need someone to talk to. I'm sure randomz is as well. :)

 

[Soulless_Angel]

If you think it's a mental illness then you should be alright. Just take some medication and see if your mood lifts

Not everyone is able to take medication! If only life were that simple hey!

As for OP totally get what you are saying.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I have physical issues that led me to have mental illness. Body and mind work together. If one is wrong so the other. Chronic pain ,some kind of body dysmorphia and existential crisis.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

Meds can even take months. I tried Zoloft for at least 4 months. My mom and dad pushed me to. I was on like 150 mg at one point(I'm a guy that weighs around 140 lbs). It may have helped some(my parents think so). But I got mad at the fact I was still alive and threw out the bottle. I quit cold turkey. Never noticed withdrawal.
Hopefully your meds help you randomz. It'd be cool if you found something that helps you as well smashingairwaves. Sometimes you have to try multiple meds. I wish it was easy.

Thanks, I've been on and off Prozac for years. Maybe I need to up my dose... hmm. I tried Zoloft and that had to be the worst anti depressant I had tried. Felt like I had a terrible cold for ages. Never again lol.

I get what you mean about being suicidal on and off like that,smashing. Sometimes good things happen to me and it makes me feel even more depressed,instead of feeling simply happy. I don't want to be happy and become another mindless drone in society... that's me personally.

I know a lot of people here don't want to be yet another 'drone' in society, another unknown pawn... But honestly I wouldn't mind, as long as I could feel happy and fulfilled. But I don't. I don't want to waste my time at a job I hate and be tired all the time, so I fully get what you're saying. Anxiety doesn't help either. The fact that wealth in the world isn't distributed evenly and some people struggle while others will have more money then they know what to do with fucks me off. But that's a whole other discussion.

Hopefully you manage to cheer up somehow in the meantime(I know,it's hard). Watching comedy cartoons is really fun.

True, at least I have an internet connection, right? So much entertainment out there

 

[AlreadyGone]

I absolutely understand what you mean. Sometimes good news doesn't make you feel better because (in my case) it often leads to disappointment.
I absolutely understand what you mean. Sometimes good news doesn't make you feel better because (in my case) it often leads to disappointment.

 

[peacefighter]

Agree completely. Keep asking what the heck is wrong with me? Why can't I get through this? Bleddy meds have messed me up no end, should never have started them.