Thisgirlwantstosleep
A pointless life had in a pointless world
- Mar 11, 2019
- 130
I called a crisis line twice today out of desperation because my OCD is unmanageable at the moment and in the conversations I had a few minutes ago the guy was constantly talking over me. Both of the people I spoke to just didn't listen at all, saying things that make no sense in regards to my situation because they're not listening.
This is why I refuse to call those lines. The reaffirment that no one gives a shit about me–to the point they speak over me in the middle of a sentence–really makes me want to CTB.
And I was going to complain and tell him, "Could you stop speaking over me please?" but I've had so many bad experiences with male mental health workers as it is it's just not worry dragging out the interaction and opening myself up to abuse.
I will say local crisis lines are particularly awful but lines like the samaritans are typically okay. Should have just called them ffs.
So fucking tempted to jump right now.
This is why I refuse to call those lines. The reaffirment that no one gives a shit about me–to the point they speak over me in the middle of a sentence–really makes me want to CTB.
And I was going to complain and tell him, "Could you stop speaking over me please?" but I've had so many bad experiences with male mental health workers as it is it's just not worry dragging out the interaction and opening myself up to abuse.
I will say local crisis lines are particularly awful but lines like the samaritans are typically okay. Should have just called them ffs.
So fucking tempted to jump right now.