Help mental block

[ketaminekisses]

I have everything I need to CTB.
I was going to today but dispute how miserable my life is, despite how much I wish it would just end, I couldn't do it. im too scared. im not even sure what I'm scared of exactly. I just need help shaking this fear off so I can jus CTB
already

 

[FuneralCry]

After all suicide just isn't straightforward to go through with even if one has a method plan, I think that only the individual knows when the time is right to finally leave, I think that many of those who managed to succeed just got so desperate and determined. But of course suicide is something very difficult because as humans we are all programmed to survive even if we are fully aware of how dreadful existing is.