Megathread getting n from a

[Ntothed]

I received an email from A today. I want to know what the success rate of getting N from him to the United States is. Who has had success with purchasing the product and getting it delivered ? Do people use their home address or should I open up a PO Box? I want to make sure I do this right the first time.

 

[onegoodreason]

I received an email from A today. I want to know what the success rate of getting N from him to the United States is. Who has had success with purchasing the product and getting it delivered ? Do people use their home address or should I open up a PO Box? I want to make sure I do this right the first time.

Hmm, that is something else to consider for me as well. Husband picks up the mail from the box out front these days. If I can't get to it first, I may not receive it, though he has been giving me my mail, boxes and things I've ordered, etc. so it may not be an issue. But this is too important to leave to chance. Will see if I can get to the mail first from now on, then it's not a problem. Thanks for the idea, though.

 

[onegoodreason]

Is it possible to use pgp with A?

A claims his deliveries are intercepted ("seized") when he mail the tracking info, so its reasonable to suspect someone is eavesdropping on his emails!?

A then suggest pay extra for private courier (in this option he wont mail tracking info). Is this his way to earn more money or is someone eavesdropping his emails?

I want use pgp to avid unwanted guests at my house!

Hannibal, what is pgp? Don't know that one. Thanks and apologies if this is a stupid question.

 

[onegoodreason]

Read the part of taking the medication

This is what i found after i had the idea of honey. Even they do it

Thanks so much for this attachment, ddutch! That is extremely useful info. Hopefully, following the same protocol with N will work as the mix he's suggesting. Glad I like honey, not crazy about hard alcohol, though! Oh well, I think I'll get over it pretty quick! ;-)

I wonder if any doc would help a severely depressed person in chronic pain with this. Probably not, shoot! CA passed a physician assisted suicide law last year I think, so it's legal here now, too. Don't have to go to OR or WA and wait 6 months to establish residency, which I thought of doing some time ago in relation to the possibility of contracting Alzheimer's (worst fear, and pretty sure where I'm heading). That's kinda why I've been wishing for inoperable cancer. I could either stay without any treatments and wait for it to kill me, or get a doc to help me go. Doesn't look like that's in the cards for me, though, even though I was a smoker for so many years. Oh well...(sigh) N it is, unless something else comes up that's not so frelling expensive and hard to get but just as lethal and painless!?

 

[Goldenwolf]

Hello, has anyone from the UK used a P.O box to have their N delivered? I can't get it sent to my house I need to use that option instead. Please answer if you can, thank you. Also which one would be better? regular or private courier for P.O box?

 

[johnny]

So you just put a spoonful of honey in your mouth before drinking the N? And that doesn't cause your throat to get clogged up and difficulty swallowing?

So it would be spoonful of honey, then drink it, then chocolate?

Extremely concerned about throwing it up. Anyone know what would happen if you threw up after drinking it, or if you gagged and couldn't get it all down? Would you just go to sleep for 16hr, or go into a coma? Anyone know?

 

[Fcancer]

I received an email from A today. I want to know what the success rate of getting N from him to the United States is. Who has had success with purchasing the product and getting it delivered ? Do people use their home address or should I open up a PO Box? I want to make sure I do this right the first time.

If you are in the states you have the best chance for recieving it, private courier would be the best due to where it's sent from. Unsure on home address/PO box Q as I don't live in states sorry.

 

[onegoodreason]

Just to let you know, I received the first email from A today after sending my initial one yesterday. Seems pretty thorough and legit to me, but what the hell do I know? I tend to be a trusting sort and have seriously been mistaken by some people. Anyway, a lot of my questions got answered there, but I do still have some that I will probably ask here, and to A, just not right now. Hopefully more tomorrow. Goodnight!

 

[HannibalLector]

Hannibal, what is pgp? Don't know that one. Thanks and apologies if this is a stupid question.

Hi onegoodreason,

pgp is a secure way to encrypt emails. Its common practice on darknet when interact with sellers.

Have a nice day!

Yours sincerely
Hannibal

 

[okyeah]

If I miss the N delivery what will happen? Do I have to sign for it?

 

[onegoodreason]

Hi onegoodreason,

pgp is a secure way to encrypt emails. Its common practice on darknet when interact with sellers.

Have a nice day!

Yours sincerely
Hannibal

Thanks, Hannibal. I'm not particularly computer-saavy so I'm unfamiliar with things like this and have no clue how they work, etc. I get it's a good idea to encrypt emails when doing some "darker" things anywhere on the net, but I don't know how to do that, so I suppose I should stay away from doing "darker" things. oy. Well, it was recommended to open a protonmail account so I'll do that much anyway. It probably would be a good idea to use Bitcoin to purchase N, but again, how to do that may be a bit beyond me. I did check it out, but I'm still not sure about it. We'll see. Is there anywhere on the forum that talks about that, folks? Thanks again! :-D

 

[onegoodreason]

After I wrote one my previous posts above about wishing for cancer - I thought about it and wondered, "Who the hell wants cancer, wishes for it, prays for it, even?" A very disturbed and sick mind is all I could think of, a severely depressed, chronically stressed and despairing mind and soul. Yep, that's me.
And then I thought about all of us here, how many are so sad and angry and sick and tired of living in a world that just kicks us around, how we just aren't able to cope with it all and desperately want to get out of here. There are soooo many of us out here - it's very telling about what kind of world we're living in these days. No doubt, it's the worst time in all of history that there is this much sorrow, and lack of compassion and understanding that makes it worse for us sensitive souls. I don't remember so much sadness and sorrow when I was growing up in the 50s, 60s and even 70s. There was still an innocence though I think we were all forced into awareness after the Kennedy assassinations. And then the violence going on so frequently and then more and more till we're practically numb from it, we've been conditioned to just accept it and move on, thanks in part to Hollywood, TV and all its bad news, and music and literature, too, sadly. Anyway, just something to think on, if you care to. Comments welcome. Probably should start another thread on this, unless there is one already. (we need a "rolling eyes" emoji) Apologies, monitors. Feel free to move this post elsewhere, just let me know!

 

[HannibalLector]

Thanks, Hannibal. I'm not particularly computer-saavy so I'm unfamiliar with things like this and have no clue how they work, etc. I get it's a good idea to encrypt emails when doing some "darker" things anywhere on the net, but I don't know how to do that, so I suppose I should stay away from doing "darker" things. oy. Well, it was recommended to open a protonmail account so I'll do that much anyway. It probably would be a good idea to use Bitcoin to purchase N, but again, how to do that may be a bit beyond me. I did check it out, but I'm still not sure about it. We'll see. Is there anywhere on the forum that talks about that, folks? Thanks again! :-D

A recommends purchase bitcoin at blockchain.com

I hope this tutorial can make it easier for you

 

[Arak]

Is it possible to use pgp with A?

A claims his deliveries are intercepted ("seized") when he mail the tracking info, so its reasonable to suspect someone is eavesdropping on his emails!?

A then suggest pay extra for private courier (in this option he wont mail tracking info). Is this his way to earn more money or is someone eavesdropping his emails?

I want use pgp to avid unwanted guests at my house!

Just assume it's a bit more complicated and different than it seems. Sometimes half-truths are truths.

 

[Arak]

Just asking for feedback: succesful deliveries to Europe since A got back from his surgery last year ?
I don't have access to the Exit forums.

 

[ctrl_alt_delete]

Dear All.

Have rec'd N from A.

* * *

All communications took place on a VPN via protonmail. I opened a new account specifically for this purpose. I assured A that all data in this account would be deleted and the account itself deactivated after our transaction was complete. This satisfied A.

A responds within a 24 hour period. They never push. I like that they are informative and discrete.

Found A to be polite and courteous throughout. They seem to appreciate the same in return. I had to delay our transaction for a couple of weeks; A had no problem with this

Ordered 2 bottles, to be delivered by private courier to a European address. I think I understand now how the private courier works and would recommend it.

Sent money via WU. No problems - used cash and govt issued ID. Incremental fluctuations in value of dollar did not affect overall price. WU charges seem steep however; I'd bring an extra $50 if you want to avoid using your cards to make up the balance.

Attended WU dressed smartly and soberly, with extra anti-d's on board. I suspect this is where alarm-bells can be rung. Used a story about "some idiot nephew of mine who's run out of money on holiday and needs to get home for Christmas". Everyone was very helpful.

WU sent an email that my ID was not recognised. I went to their website and saw no flag-up in that regard. I decided to sit on this for a day or two, since I knew my ID was good. Within 24 hours A had confirmed receipt of payment, as did WU. I think this was the most nervous I found myself.

A gave me a timeline for when they would dispatch the product, and when I would likely receive it. It was very difficult to restrain myself from asking for updates, but managed to do so. Product arrived two weeks later. I have delayed posting this news for a few days to avoid possible timeline flags.

* * *

Of course, I still don't know 100% that the product in the bottles is N. However I am taking A on reputation. The complete lack of people who have taken A's product and who then come back to this site to say they've been ripped off speaks volumes. Soon I will know.

Now I am spending some months cutting all ties to people whom I love. I hope that this will cushion the emotional impact for them. This will be my sole social media site from here on in; this is ethically acceptable, given that we all know why we are here.

* * *

Peace.

 

[johnny]

Anyone know if there are any OTC drugs that would negatively (for our purposes) interact with N? Or is it just certain prescription drugs such as barbiturates and anti-psychotic meds?

Which medications should be avoided?

 

[killing me softly]

Dear All.

Have rec'd N from A.

* * *

All communications took place on a VPN via protonmail. I opened a new account specifically for this purpose. I assured A that all data in this account would be deleted and the account itself deactivated after our transaction was complete. This satisfied A.

A responds within a 24 hour period. They never push. I like that they are informative and discrete.

Found A to be polite and courteous throughout. They seem to appreciate the same in return. I had to delay our transaction for a couple of weeks; A had no problem with this

Ordered 2 bottles, to be delivered by private courier to a European address. I think I understand now how the private courier works and would recommend it.

Sent money via WU. No problems - used cash and govt issued ID. Incremental fluctuations in value of dollar did not affect overall price. WU charges seem steep however; I'd bring an extra $50 if you want to avoid using your cards to make up the balance.

Attended WU dressed smartly and soberly, with extra anti-d's on board. I suspect this is where alarm-bells can be rung. Used a story about "some idiot nephew of mine who's run out of money on holiday and needs to get home for Christmas". Everyone was very helpful.

WU sent an email that my ID was not recognised. I went to their website and saw no flag-up in that regard. I decided to sit on this for a day or two, since I knew my ID was good. Within 24 hours A had confirmed receipt of payment, as did WU. I think this was the most nervous I found myself.

A gave me a timeline for when they would dispatch the product, and when I would likely receive it. It was very difficult to restrain myself from asking for updates, but managed to do so. Product arrived two weeks later. I have delayed posting this news for a few days to avoid possible timeline flags.

* * *

Of course, I still don't know 100% that the product in the bottles is N. However I am taking A on reputation. The complete lack of people who have taken A's product and who then come back to this site to say they've been ripped off speaks volumes. Soon I will know.

Now I am spending some months cutting all ties to people whom I love. I hope that this will cushion the emotional impact for them. This will be my sole social media site from here on in; this is ethically acceptable, given that we all know why we are here.

* * *

Peace.

thanks for providing such a detailed description of your interaction.

 

[onegoodreason]

Dear All.

Have rec'd N from A.

* * *

All communications took place on a VPN via protonmail. I opened a new account specifically for this purpose. I assured A that all data in this account would be deleted and the account itself deactivated after our transaction was complete. This satisfied A.

A responds within a 24 hour period. They never push. I like that they are informative and discrete.

Found A to be polite and courteous throughout. They seem to appreciate the same in return. I had to delay our transaction for a couple of weeks; A had no problem with this

Ordered 2 bottles, to be delivered by private courier to a European address. I think I understand now how the private courier works and would recommend it.

Sent money via WU. No problems - used cash and govt issued ID. Incremental fluctuations in value of dollar did not affect overall price. WU charges seem steep however; I'd bring an extra $50 if you want to avoid using your cards to make up the balance.

Attended WU dressed smartly and soberly, with extra anti-d's on board. I suspect this is where alarm-bells can be rung. Used a story about "some idiot nephew of mine who's run out of money on holiday and needs to get home for Christmas". Everyone was very helpful.

WU sent an email that my ID was not recognised. I went to their website and saw no flag-up in that regard. I decided to sit on this for a day or two, since I knew my ID was good. Within 24 hours A had confirmed receipt of payment, as did WU. I think this was the most nervous I found myself.

A gave me a timeline for when they would dispatch the product, and when I would likely receive it. It was very difficult to restrain myself from asking for updates, but managed to do so. Product arrived two weeks later. I have delayed posting this news for a few days to avoid possible timeline flags.

* * *

Of course, I still don't know 100% that the product in the bottles is N. However I am taking A on reputation. The complete lack of people who have taken A's product and who then come back to this site to say they've been ripped off speaks volumes. Soon I will know.

Now I am spending some months cutting all ties to people whom I love. I hope that this will cushion the emotional impact for them. This will be my sole social media site from here on in; this is ethically acceptable, given that we all know why we are here.

* * *

Peace.

Thank you so much for this post, ctr_alt_delete. I am please that A came through for you, and that WU worked so well and fairly easily as well, as I think that will be my choice, too. I just wrote A another email thanking him for his first one to me and asked several more questions which hopefully he will answer in time. I think being polite and understanding is a very helpful tactic in this situation. I also got a protonmail account today to keep our communications more secure. Wasn't sure about the VPN, so didn't do that. Do you recommend getting that, is it really necessary? Seems complicated to me, but then I'm not that computer-saavy. Rather keep things as simple as possible.

I realize that until one takes the N, there's no sure way to know if it's the real deal unless you test it first. Someone posted about a kit you can buy for that - who was that? For me, though, seeing as A was a veterinarian, and he's supplied countless others before and there are no survivor stories from his N anywhere here, the conclusion can be drawn that it's the real deal. I know we all hope that's so, of course.

From A's recommendations, it looks like I may only need one bottle for my weight. That would help a lot. I'm still going to be delayed, though, to save up the money I need to do this, cutting my monthly funds in half to do it, so will have to go without some food and other things, unless I can figure out a way to earn some. This is too important to me to let it slide, so I'm looking at either the end of March or sometime in April as my exit date. (sigh) I so wish I had known about all this in October when I had the money to buy, dang!

Will keep an eye on your future posts with interest. I hope you will tell us how you are feeling, your state of mind and all as you move through the process you have set for yourself. Could you share what exactly you are doing and how it's going along the way? Maybe start your own thread in this regard.

I will say for myself, since I've made my decision to ctb and the method, I actually feel much calmer and if possible, a little happier, knowing there is an end in sight. Not that the depression has lifted, it hasn't, but getting through the day is just a little easier as I look forward to my freedom. Still, I can go off easily, too, as I found out tonight as I got several prank calls on my cell phone and I was screaming at these people to not call me ever again and I was blocking them. Yikes!? Don't mess with the crazy lady, y'all!!

More later.

 

[onegoodreason]

A recommends purchase bitcoin at blockchain.com

I hope this tutorial can make it easier for you

Thanks again, Hannibal. I think I'm going to go with WU, though, rather than Bitcoin. Seeing ctr_alt_delete's post below makes me more confident it will be okay to do that. I'm just too nervous about screwing up the transaction in Bitcoin and losing my frelling precious money!? Ya know? Thank you for the info, Hannibal, I appreciate it! :-D

 

[onegoodreason]

Nothing wrong or irrational at all about wanting to have the decision taken out of your hands. It is, like most things, not the same as it sounds since cancer can be miserably painful. But for someone convinced they want out, the mental relief of not having to MAKE it happen can be enticing. Thing is I don't believe any of us REALLY want death. We want the pain to stop and that's the only way we can see how. Getting cancer would probably just be a temporary reprieve mentally, but you still have to face all the same shit following AND the pain and medical crap. But it's perfectly human and rational to think such things when in this situation.

Yes, I understand completely what you're saying, oneofthesedays. I know cancer can be excruciatingly painful but that's what opiates are for, yes? ;-) And medical MJ. I could live with that for as long as necessary. And then have a really good reason for doc assisted suicide when those options no longer work and I'm ready to go. Ya know? ;-) I would never, ever go through chemo/radiation, though, unless that's a condition of doc assisted suicide. Frell, that would suck big time!

I kind of agree with you about not REALLY wanting death, if I had all the money in the world and I could live the way I would Love to, then no, I wouldn't want to die then, I think. But as that's not likely to happen, a lot of my depression stems from not being able to live the way I'd like because of no money. Some people think it's just so easy to get money, it's just an "energy form" after all, call it to you, the Universe will provide. Um, no, not for everyone. Do I have some blocks about it? Probably, don't know exactly what they are, but I don't think it would matter. I never could decide what I wanted to be when I grow up though I had some dreams and all, but as the years have gone by, they have all dissipated and there's nothing else left to dream up. I have a lack of ambition, no drive or motivation to strive for that golden ring like so many others do and, of course, the depression robs one of all that, too. But it all doesn't come easily to me, nothing ever has. I have a tendency to start things but drop them if it gets too hard or complicated to figure out. So starting some sort of business or whatever wouldn't work for me.

Anyway, thanks so much for your understanding and point of view of my comments. Glad to know I'm not totally irrational, I guess.

 

[ctrl_alt_delete]

Thank you so much for this post, ctr_alt_delete. I am please that A came through for you, and that WU worked so well and fairly easily as well, as I think that will be my choice, too. I just wrote A another email thanking him for his first one to me and asked several more questions which hopefully he will answer in time. I think being polite and understanding is a very helpful tactic in this situation. I also got a protonmail account today to keep our communications more secure. Wasn't sure about the VPN, so didn't do that. Do you recommend getting that, is it really necessary? Seems complicated to me, but then I'm not that computer-saavy. Rather keep things as simple as possible.

I realize that until one takes the N, there's no sure way to know if it's the real deal unless you test it first. Someone posted about a kit you can buy for that - who was that? For me, though, seeing as A was a veterinarian, and he's supplied countless others before and there are no survivor stories from his N anywhere here, the conclusion can be drawn that it's the real deal. I know we all hope that's so, of course.

From A's recommendations, it looks like I may only need one bottle for my weight. That would help a lot. I'm still going to be delayed, though, to save up the money I need to do this, cutting my monthly funds in half to do it, so will have to go without some food and other things, unless I can figure out a way to earn some. This is too important to me to let it slide, so I'm looking at either the end of March or sometime in April as my exit date. (sigh) I so wish I had known about all this in October when I had the money to buy, dang!

Will keep an eye on your future posts with interest. I hope you will tell us how you are feeling, your state of mind and all as you move through the process you have set for yourself. Could you share what exactly you are doing and how it's going along the way? Maybe start your own thread in this regard.

I will say for myself, since I've made my decision to ctb and the method, I actually feel much calmer and if possible, a little happier, knowing there is an end in sight. Not that the depression has lifted, it hasn't, but getting through the day is just a little easier as I look forward to my freedom. Still, I can go off easily, too, as I found out tonight as I got several prank calls on my cell phone and I was screaming at these people to not call me ever again and I was blocking them. Yikes!? Don't mess with the crazy lady, y'all!!

More later.

Thank you onegoodreason and killingmesoftly. I don't know how or whether the etiquette of emojis here differs from elsewhere, please don't be offended by these <3 <3

I started a thread a few days ago, to say all the things I expect I'll feel like I need to say. Maybe some of it will be useful to some of you, maybe it will simply be a pointless exercise in narcissism. Anyway it's here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/some-thoughts-upon-an-ethically-self-acceptable-death.9859 I am interested in the ethics of a good death, that is to say, to reduce suffering both for myself and others, although I was also fairly drunk when I wrote the first entry in that thread. Sorry (not sorry).

I understand what you mean about the money situation. I found it painfully difficult putting a little aside each month. To alleviate the pain of it a little I opened a new account, set up a direct debit for $x/month, and then when I received the bank card and PIN number destroyed them both. This allowed that account to slowly drip-feed up to $200 more than the required amount (for those unforeseen expenses) without me constantly taking a ten or twenty out for essential groceries. I've discovered that it is in fact possible to live on whole oats, brown rice and lentils if you know why you're doing it. Ate pizza and ice cream today though. It felt so self-indulgent, but in a good way.

I'm really glad I'm going with N.

 

[ge0rge]

can you also use moneygram to pay? I'm far more familiar w/ it

 

[okyeah]

where the fuck is my N...it has been 4 weeks now...I'm getting pissed and worried. Has anyone else waited this long? Anyone else waiting rn?

 

[therhydler]

where the fuck is my N...it has been 4 weeks now...I'm getting pissed and worried. Has anyone else waited this long? Anyone else waiting rn?

Maybe there were delays bc of the holidays?

 

[okyeah]

Maybe there were delays bc of the holidays?

yeah i guess. I haven't heard of anyone here saying they got it after 4 weeks though.

I hope they would drop it off for me? Or would they leave it at the post office if I missed the dropoff?

 

[therhydler]

yeah i guess. I haven't heard of anyone here saying they got it after 4 weeks though.

I hope they would drop it off for me? Or would they leave it at the post office if I missed the dropoff?

I went through this thread really carefully some time ago and there was definitely one guy who recieved it after around 5 weeks or more, he was getting very worried but it reached him in the end. I hope this will be the case with you too. And yeah, they should leave it at the post office if you're not there... at least thats how it works where im from

 

[okyeah]

I went through this thread really carefully some time ago and there was definitely one guy who recieved it after around 5 weeks or more, he was getting very worried but it reached him in the end. I hope this will be the case with you too. And yeah, they should leave it at the post office if you're not there... at least thats how it works where im from

interesting. thanks for the help with that! guess ill just go meditate now while i wait. lol

 

[RbnHopeless]

where the fuck is my N...it has been 4 weeks now...I'm getting pissed and worried. Has anyone else waited this long? Anyone else waiting rn?

My first bottle took only 6 days to arrive in October (Europe), while the second order has been in transit for 3 weeks. I'm worried and anxious because I won't be able to get more money in the short term.

 

[Arak]

@okyeah ,

Europe, USA, elsewhere ? I'm still waiting.