Meant to CTB, SN solutions in front of me.

[lucaricoomio]

Damn SI is no joke, I'm just kind of staring at them, 10 minutes to go if I want to stay within protocol… man this sucks. Don't want to waste 50g of SN but I'm also bricking it and I have no idea why, I've been feeling numb yet accepting and determined all week and now it's finally happening and I'm reluctant???

How long can a SN solution stay viable? I think I might need 20-60 more minutes or something.

Fuck I hate this, my mom is on the other side of the house and all I want to do is crawl into bed with her and sob. But I really don't want to be sent to another inpatient facility and that whole rigamarole.

I only did the blood test on the SN, perhaps I should get a proper test kit and wait until I'm sure of the purity? But then that just feels like an excuse lol I'm struggling

 

[Anonymousa]

I am so sorry you are struggling with indecision. Its up to you to figure out whether that is SI and you want to die or an actual want to live. Whatever happens, I hope you can escape your pain.

 

[rs929]

What happened buddy? Are you okay?

 

[restlesseyes]

are you ok ? what did you decide to do ?

 

[deadbidaylight]

Are you still with us?