Meaningless existence..

[thovens]

Another day has passed.
Another day that I'm still alive.
But what's the purpose?
If you don't have a hand to hold yours.
If you don't have a smile to brighten your day.
An understanding soul to share your thoughts.
Another day in this prison,
craving death more than life.
Wishing for a peaceful end,
from this unfriendly world.

 

[Elle]

Hope you can find some peace, how are you today?

 

[thovens]

Hope you can find some peace, how are you today?

I feel numb and tired. Tired of this meaningless loop.

 

[Elle]

I feel numb and tired. Tired of this meaningless loop.

Do you have any hobbies? I know when feeling shit and numb, we don't find what we used to enjoyable etc, but when things were 'ok' what did you enjoy?

 

[thovens]

Do you have any hobbies? I know when feeling shit and numb, we don't find what we used to enjoyable etc, but when things were 'ok' what did you enjoy?

I enjoyed music, taking walks with friends, riding a bike and nature. But not anymore.

 

[Elle]

I enjoyed music, taking walks with friends, riding a bike and nature. But not anymore.

Do you have anyone to talk to, like a therapist?

 

[thovens]

Do you have anyone to talk to, like a therapist?

I used to go to a therapist but she couldn't help me. Things were more serious than she expected and she suggested me to go to a psychiatrist to start meds. Now i have no one.

 

[Elle]

I used to go to a therapist but she couldn't help me. Things were more serious than she expected and she suggested me to go to a psychiatrist to start meds. Now i have no one.

What would it feel like seeing them? A psychiatrist I mean.

 

[thovens]

What would it feel like seeing them? A psychiatrist I mean.

I'm not sure about this decision. Taking meds i mean. Sometimes they can help but not always. I don't know.

 

[outrider567]

Another day has passed.
Another day that I'm still alive.
But what's the purpose?
If you don't have a hand to hold yours.
If you don't have a smile to brighten your day.
An understanding soul to share your thoughts.
Another day in this prison,
craving death more than life.
Wishing for a peaceful end,
from this unfriendly world.

Perfectly said, we used to share our thoughts endlessly-- And hold hands frequently, when we were driving

 

[Elle]

I'm not sure about this decision. Taking meds i mean. Sometimes they can help but not always. I don't know.

Well, do what makes you feel a little bit more comfortable, as you matter. *hugs*

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of being trapped here, to peacefully not exist where I'm completely unaware for all eternity is certainly all I've ever wished for, I see death as being the only relief in such a dreadful existence.