Judah
Enlightened
- Oct 1, 2020
- 1,540
Right now I'm drunk, and at this point I realize that I'm the biggest problem, I deserve to be eliminated, maybe I'm a danger to society or something, I don't know, I don't really care either, but here we are
My mental stability is a joke, a joke in bad taste that must one day end with my death, am I God's jester? maybe, I don't know, the point is that I'm not interested either,
I hate myself, I hate every little part of me, I hate everything about me, everything I touch I destroy, I can never find stability, don't relate to me, I'm just a problem magnet, I attract all kinds of problems so absurd because my mental stability sucks, admin suggested that my brain was dead, that's right, it is, i've lost all common sense, i want to end this, why? because I have realized that, autism is not my only problem, I have also developed other mental problems, problems that I have ignored and that are now there, and now, my mind is a prison, a damn prison, which has made a radical change in my life, I need help but I don't know who to ask, I need a hug but I don't know who to ask. Life is cruel, this life is cruel, I'm sorry I ruined so many things, I've even ruined some friendships I've made in SS, I'm disgusting, I'm someone despicable who deserves to be thrown in the trash, I don't want to live
My mental stability is a joke, a joke in bad taste that must one day end with my death, am I God's jester? maybe, I don't know, the point is that I'm not interested either,
I hate myself, I hate every little part of me, I hate everything about me, everything I touch I destroy, I can never find stability, don't relate to me, I'm just a problem magnet, I attract all kinds of problems so absurd because my mental stability sucks, admin suggested that my brain was dead, that's right, it is, i've lost all common sense, i want to end this, why? because I have realized that, autism is not my only problem, I have also developed other mental problems, problems that I have ignored and that are now there, and now, my mind is a prison, a damn prison, which has made a radical change in my life, I need help but I don't know who to ask, I need a hug but I don't know who to ask. Life is cruel, this life is cruel, I'm sorry I ruined so many things, I've even ruined some friendships I've made in SS, I'm disgusting, I'm someone despicable who deserves to be thrown in the trash, I don't want to live