Me again, misery, methods

[downndone2]

It is me again, miserable, no sleep, hating life over my fucked up decisions yrs ago that destroyed so much. I just can't go on like this and I wish I could just die in my sleep but noooo

I prefer N or F but it just isnt accessible. I have mentioned that I have prob 500mg oxy and demerol (likely nor enough) and I do have several vials of insulin. I have not used opiates at all for yrs and it was always post operation for very short time. I also have 9mm (last resort).

If I take tye opiates and insulin, maybe it will work.

If I shoot myself, I would do it outside somewhere

I am looking for any advise or experience. Just gutwrenching that I ruined such an awesome life and now this@!!!

 

[jodes2]

Are you sure you need to kill yourself? Things can be recoverable. Don't let negative feelings get in the way of living a good life, they can be tamed.

9mm seems like the best option

 

[downndone2]

I'm sure, the damage just can't be repaired.

 

[Shadowlord900]

I know what it's like to have sleeping issues, it sucks major ass.

The amount of drugs you say you have definitely will not be enough, even with the help of alcohol and/or grapefruit juice. If you know how to inject, 500mg oxycodone might be enough, but I can't find enough info on lethal doses via injection, plus there's that risk of falling unconscious before the full amount gets injected.

Do you know how to get onto the dark net? The dark net is the best source for drugs that are actually useful for the drug overdose method. Also if taking orally don't forget to get an antiemetic too. Sadly you generally can't get antiemetics from the dark net, but they're still possible to get on the clear net, or even from your own doctors if you can come up with a convincing story.