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Eschaton

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Apr 16, 2023
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My fiancé recently left me because I fucked up and betrayed her trust. My life's biggest regret. The shame is unbearable, her family was my only family, I can't live without her. I have some SN on the way. I'm excited to send her a note and give her all of my crypto holdings to pay for her graduate school
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It must be painful being in that situation but I can imagine that it must be a relief knowing that the SN is soon to arrive so that you aren't trapped here and have the option of a way to leave. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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betternever2havbeen

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Jun 19, 2022
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Is there any way you can get back with her? I know it feels like the end of the world now but do you not want to wait a few months and see how you feel then?
 
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Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
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My fiancé recently left me because I fucked up and betrayed her trust. My life's biggest regret. The shame is unbearable, her family was my only family, I can't live without her. I have some SN on the way. I'm excited to send her a note and give her all of my crypto holdings to pay for her graduate school
Work on earning her forgiveness and regain her trust. Idk what you did - if it's infidelity it may take years. As long as she didn't marry someone else, there is hope. Maybe send her the crypto and tell her you want to help unconditionally regardless of if she returns or not, because you love her. Deep words backed up by actions lead to results.
Ctb should be last resort...
 
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Eschaton

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Apr 16, 2023
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Is there any way you can get back with her? I know it feels like the end of the world now but do you not want to wait a few months and see how you feel then?
There is no hope. She has made this clear.

It will not work
Work on earning her forgiveness and regain her trust. Idk what you did - if it's infidelity it may take years. As long as she didn't marry someone else, there is hope. Maybe send her the crypto and tell her you want to help unconditionally regardless of if she returns or not, because you love her. Deep words backed up by actions lead to results.
Ctb should be last resort...
CTB is my last resort, she has made it clear that she cannot forgive me
 
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Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
There is no hope. She has made this clear.

It will not work

CTB is my last resort, she has made it clear that she cannot forgive me
People say a lot of hurtful things when they are deeply upset and hurt. Give it some time. Suicide really should be the last resort.
 
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11April

11.04.2015 ❤️
Jan 9, 2023
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Work on earning her forgiveness and regain her trust. Idk what you did - if it's infidelity it may take years. As long as she didn't marry someone else, there is hope. Maybe send her the crypto and tell her you want to help unconditionally regardless of if she returns or not, because you love her. Deep words backed up by actions lead to results.
Ctb should be last resort...
"As long as she didn't marry someone else, there is hope." - How much pain for me in these words.
I understand the author, I feel about the same pain. But I agree with you - until she got married, there is hope.
Sorry. Google Translate.
 
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fallenangel444

ill be home soon
Apr 2, 2023
38
There is no hope. She has made this clear.

It will not work

CTB is my last resort, she has made it clear that she cannot forgive me
i know im not in the right place to say this but take it easy the bus is not going anywhere i wish you the best goodluck :D
 
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Eschaton

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Apr 16, 2023
32
People say a lot of hurtful things when they are deeply upset and hurt. Give it some time. Suicide really should be the last resort.
She thinks I'm a pedophile. There is no returning from that
"As long as she didn't marry someone else, there is hope." - How much pain for me in these words.
I understand the author, I feel about the same pain. But I agree with you - until she got married, there is hope.
Sorry. Google Translate.
Perhaps. I have driven her and her family away with incessant begging and texting
 
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Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
She thinks I'm a pedophile. There is no returning from that
Honestly, sorry but I and most of us can't really say anything to that without any background information but I think it is not the time for you to leave yet.
 
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betternever2havbeen

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,118
@Eschaton That certainly puts a different spin on things, er it's all just one very unfortunate misunderstanding then? I agree you should give her some space now, but it doesn't mean you can't meet someone else in time. I am hoping you are most definitely NOT what she thinks you are?
 
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Eschaton

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Apr 16, 2023
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Honestly, sorry but I and most of us can't really say anything to that without any background information but I think it is not the time for you to leave yet.
You're right.
@Eschaton That certainly puts a different spin on things, er it's all just one very unfortunate misunderstanding then? I agree you should give her some space now, but it doesn't mean you can't meet someone else in time. I am hoping you are most definitely NOT what she thinks you are?
I'll post what happened
I am most certainly not that. I have POCD because of abuse when I was a child.she knew about it. I use discord for marketing of crypto. This girl hit me up asking me if I could make her a server. I made her a server and she then asked me to do marketing. She told me it was for an only fans and I refused. Later I found out that she was 17. I messaged her to clarify and she said she has been selling nudes since she was 16. I said "risky yet hot game you play" (stupid I know). I genuinely meant that it was risky and I'm sure that someone was into it but not me. My fiancé found the messages and flipped out because she has a background of pedos in her family and because she knew about the intrusive thoughts and connected the two in her mind. I would NEVER do that
 
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Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
This honestly sounds like something you can make up. I guess she was mostly just shocked and afraid. Maybe that triggered some trauma in her, idk. But I am certain that you guys can still talk this out. Not all hope is lost
 
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Dec 15, 2021
252
She thinks I'm a pedophile. There is no returning from that

Perhaps. I have driven her and her family away with incessant begging and texting
You should stop harassing her and her family tbh
 
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Kodokushi

Falling...into the abyss...
Apr 19, 2023
65
Give both her and you some time to cool down, don't act on impulse cause this is something people usually regret. Once time has passed and you've cooled down, then you can think on what to do next
 
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Eschaton

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Apr 16, 2023
32
This honestly sounds like something you can make up. I guess she was mostly just shocked and afraid. Maybe that triggered some trauma in her, idk. But I am certain that you guys can still talk this out. Not all hope is lost
I have tried unfortunately. She said she can't get past it. She quit her job, dropped out of school, and moved 400 miles away. She blames me for her losing her life
You should stop harassing her and her family tbh
I have. Not really been harassing her fam, they love me a lot and wish it could work out. For my sake though, I've stopped texting
Give both her and you some time to cool down, don't act on impulse cause this is something people usually regret. Once time has passed and you've cooled down, then you can think on what to do next
Okay. How much time?
 
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Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
I agree, you should give it time. No one knows how much someone needs, not even oneself. This all sounds like some impulsive decisions.
 

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