Making peace with death

[phoenixx]

Hi, I'm new here and this is my first post. I am suicidal but I am a bit scared of death which is probably why my suicide attempts in the past have all failed.

So is there anyway I can get rid of the fear of dying and make peace with death?

 

[bigj75]

You can't get rid of the survival instinct. All you can do is diminish it as best as you can with drugs, alcohol, motivation, etc. The one thing ive seen is when most people hit rock bottom is when you really get over the survival instinct.

 

[TAW122]

There isn't really a surefire way to overcome the SI fully, but to my understanding and my experiences, I have made peace with death because I've gotten low enough in life where everything sucks and I pretty much resigned myself to how powerless I am to change certain circumstances and also accept that there are too many shitty things. Furthermore, I've given myself permission to do my best and if things fail, I could always just 'die'. That is one aspect of how I made peace with death. Another thing is to consider that every living thing, including us humans, all die in the end; some die sooner while others die later.

 

[memataporfavor]

I can relate to what you said. I guess it's inevitable being scared bc it's the uknown...

I catch myself doing those reckless things (like binge drinking, meeting strangers, having unprotected sex, crossing the street without looking) in the hopes I'll just die by accident but I havent beaten yet the survival instinct that stops me from doing anything more effective.

Sometimes I really do want to die but most of the time I just wish I was never born. I think you could search for methods that put you down gently during sleep? Maybe it'd be less scary if youre unconscious

 

[a3nova]

To me, at the end of it all what @bigj75 said, it all comes down to reason, what is the reason for you to die

 

[whatever1111]

yeah I plan to think through once again my reasons for ctb on the day of ctb, because I think I know exactly why I will be doing ctb, and think that it will be enough to push me. but who knows, depends a lot on the preparation of my method (charcoal), If I could be certain I will die, I would fear much less, I guess. Don't understand the people who plan to enjoy their last day lol, if I could enjoy I wouldn't be doing this. Also like someone said, thinking that everyone dies eventually, and how shitty my life always was.

 

[a3nova]

yeah I plan to think through once again my reasons for ctb on the day of ctb, because I think I know exactly why I will be doing ctb, and think that it will be enough to push me. but who knows, depends a lot on the preparation of my method (charcoal), If I could be certain I will die, I would fear much less, I guess. Don't understand the people who plan to enjoy their last day lol, if I could enjoy I wouldn't be doing this. Also like someone said, thinking that everyone dies eventually, and how shitty my life always was.

I agree to what you are saying, if you believe in you reason to die then you will make sure your method is right, I understand pain my friend, but physical and emotional, I have been on both sides have received emotional pain and have given it out, for me pain is very real.

I am no hero nor I am a victim, but my only reason to live on which I had decided upon, is no longer an option so I must go, so I will go.

I am not sure if I make sense.