Making a series of videos leading up to ctb

[Gloomislost]

I've decided to make a series of videos leading up to my ctb. I'm mostly just giving life updates and rambling about whatever is on my mind, boring stuff lol.
I also plan to make videos for friends and family members specifically for them but I'm also not sure if that's a good idea. Either way, I'm having fun! It takes the stress off of having any regret and any SI for me. I don't know when I'll ctb exactly but when the time is right, I'll post the last video.

 

[UnoriginalUsername]

I've been thinking of doing something like this myself, but I'm not intending to release the videos until I actually CTB. My note will contain the location of the videos.

 

[Gloomislost]

I've been thinking of doing something like this myself, but I'm not intending to release the videos until I actually CTB. My note will contain the location of the videos.

You should go for it! It helps put things into perspective.

 

[UnoriginalUsername]

You should go for it! It helps put things into perspective.

Thanks for the encouragement, I will probably start working on it soon.

 

[migimortis]

Do you plan to upload the videos (prior to "ctb") online? I thought about this, but the potential of getting doxxed + flagged and banned made me too nervous to start. I think if I was going to do it, I would record but not upload, then finally upload when I'm ready to leave. Wishing you good luck.

 

[UnoriginalUsername]

Do you plan to upload the videos (prior to "ctb") online? I thought about this, but the potential of getting doxxed + flagged and banned made me too nervous to start. I think if I was going to do it, I would record but not upload, then finally upload when I'm ready to leave. Wishing you good luck.

I will do the same, but I'll put them on a USB so absolutely no one will see them until I CTB

 

[Gloomislost]

Do you plan to upload the videos (prior to "ctb") online? I thought about this, but the potential of getting doxxed + flagged and banned made me too nervous to start. I think if I was going to do it, I would record but not upload, then finally upload when I'm ready to leave. Wishing you good luck.

I already have a Google drive with some videos and I'll probably leak the link on Twitter or Instagram or here lol

 

[migimortis]

I already have a Google drive with some videos and I'll probably leak the link on Twitter or Instagram or here lol

yeah I'd be interested in watching that, could use some pointers for when I do my own :D

 

[tabby]

i've been doing this! it's honestly so freeing to know that once i've made enough videos there will be so much left behind for those i love so i don't have to write them a novel of a suicide note to explain myself

 

[Lostone47]

I've been doing the same thing. I've got 12 videos so far due to failed attempts but I think it's good to give the people we care about being upset an explanation of why you did it and a memory of you besides a dead body they have to identify. I really fear people trying to blame themselves and thinking they could have done something. I'm trying to leave people with zero questions.

 

[migimortis]

i've been doing this! it's honestly so freeing to know that once i've made enough videos there will be so much left behind for those i love so i don't have to write them a novel of a suicide note to explain myself

I've been doing the same thing. I've got 12 videos so far due to failed attempts but I think it's good to give the people we care about being upset an explanation of why you did it and a memory of you besides a dead body they have to identify. I really fear people trying to blame themselves and thinking they could have done something. I'm trying to leave people with zero questions.

now you mention it, I think this is the reason I thought of doing it in the first place. it enables you to express what a suicide note can't, in an indirect way.

 

[Gloomislost]

yeah I'd be interested in watching that, could use some pointers for when I do my own :D

Here's the link lel https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1vkuckdo_-2hK-_ASs7j4b5z4GkzMVL5T

 

[migimortis]

Here's the link lel https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1vkuckdo_-2hK-_ASs7j4b5z4GkzMVL5T

I remember feeling the same way in school. "Feeling overwhelmed" "people pleasing" it's all too much. Nice chains btw. I may sound like a hypocrite for saying this, but please consider waiting until you've lived outside of school before ending it. For many people school was the worst time in their lives, even though my life is terrible, school was honestly even worse. Take care.

 

[Gloomislost]

I remember feeling the same way in school. "Feeling overwhelmed" "people pleasing" it's all too much. Nice chains btw. I may sound like a hypocrite for saying this, but please consider waiting until you've lived outside of school before ending it. For many people school was the worst time in their lives, even though my life is terrible, school was honestly even worse. Take care.

I might, not entirely sure yet. It's not that school is a problem anymore lol, it's kind of nice now.

 

[Thanksforeverything]

I'm thinking of making a "Joseph Anderson" style in-depth video essay that's like really long which covers my core philosophies and how I feel about them, how they came to be etc but not so much my life events really. It'd probably take a while to make, but it'll also help a lot with putting things into perspective.

It won't really be for any of my loved ones ig, but I plan on leaving letters for them anyway. I'm probably a lot better at writing than I am at making videos or editing.

Good luck with your videos, but I'd caution you about anything that might lead you to getting doxxed. So, try and be careful about that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck in your plans.

 

[TransientEternal]

We'll always be listening. Stay safe. Be sure to us an exif remover to make sure that you're not giving anyone any data that can put you in danger.