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anonperdidisimo
New Member
- Feb 8, 2024
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It's been roughly 2 years since I've started to seriously think about ctb. However I kept going because I lived with my mother and there's no way I could hurt her like that. Last year I moved far away from her so I could do college and my mental state has considerably fell apart ever since then. I'm still doing college despite my last semester being terrible. There's also the chance of me getting a job. However I have no real interest in any of these since I know my life won't get any better. So for these last few months I've been heavily debating on what to do. I really want to ctb (Haven't found any good methods yet) but at the same time I don't wanna hurt my mom nor my friends and the only way of doing that is to keep going as if I had no problems in life. Finding anything to keep me "distracted" in the meantime has been very difficult and I'm lost on what to do.