I wrote a post about an hour ago, it was nearly 1000 words venting which also acted as a suicide note/goodbye thread but I changed my mind so I deleted it . I don't wanna type everything again but the gist was my younger life was so much better.
High school in specific was so much better. College and being an adult makes me want to ctb and I considered doing it tonight. I'd rather wait and if I do eventually do it, I'll probably do SN w/o AEs since they're hard for me, a healthy young adult, to source. Hopefully I can keep fighting and surviving, and not have to buy the SN and ctb now.
High school in specific was so much better. College and being an adult makes me want to ctb and I considered doing it tonight. I'd rather wait and if I do eventually do it, I'll probably do SN w/o AEs since they're hard for me, a healthy young adult, to source. Hopefully I can keep fighting and surviving, and not have to buy the SN and ctb now.
