Discussion Main Reason you want to Die?

[Ryan.s]

List bellow...

For me it's ptsd and severe depression... and of course... a loss of hope.

 

[StuckAF]

Mental disorder

 

[that_guy2611]

Depression,my stupidity and ugliness.

 

[Bct]

Depression, loneliness, and feeling hopeless about my future

 

[lymestolemylife]

List bellow...

For me it's ptsd and severe depression... and of course... a loss of hope.

Uncurable illness, each day brings a new torture. Never have a good day. Lost my talents, self, looks, hobbies everything. I can't walk anymore without sharp pain in my feet, hips, tailbone, knees. I can't stand for more than a couple minutes. I'm a shell of who I am. If I can't even be myself who am I, why am I suffering torture everyday?

 

[Ryan.s]

Depression,my stupidity and ugliness.

Ugliness is perception not reality.

 

[Negrathecat]

I feel like the way this world is makes me want to not be here anymore. I don't wanna live in a world where social media status determines your importance, where the color of your skin determines how you're treated... this world is so messed up in many ways, I don't wanna live like this.

 

[peacefully31425]

Physical health problems + mental health problems + feelings of being cut off from the rest of humanity

 

[FireFox]

1) I have failed to be a functional adult and i am emotionally immature it is so humilating. Being a functional adult means having a job, being independant and just knowing what you are doing. I realise now i cant do it compete with peoeple for jobs,
Sucide means no longer having no longer having to deal with ageing and growing up in general

2)i dont know what i want to do with my life since gradauting univeristy. I feel lost it awful .
There is so much pressure to have it figured out
I feel like i dont belong here in this world and cant see my life ever getting better

 

[Davout]

Failure.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Botched plastic surgery that destroyed my mental health, confidence and self worth.

 

[Mistake of Nature]

I hate myself and this world.

 

[selfhater]

abnormal appearance, my body decayed and rotten, lack of abilities, where i live, my whole life got taken from me, my traumatic past, my whole self and everything about me

 

[Ardesevent]

I don't have a reason to live, and I don't want to watch my life fall apart.

 

[GoBack]

Im just too tired and everything is so badly messed up. I know depression is screwing my view on things but I also know theres too much damage now to have any kind of life worth fighting for

 

[Greg V2]

Very long-term depression wore me down finally. I have no hope for a better life.

 

[mote]

The future of the world and myself.

 

[Timetodie90]

Chronic Rhino-Sinusitis.

 

[WinterFaust]

Physical health problems + mental health problems + feelings of being cut off from the rest of humanity

This. This so much. I don't know, I started thinking that there was some hope for my mental illness side of things but with the recent addition of physical health problems and especially feeling cut off and isolated from everyone else... It's too much. I feel like I don't even exist in this world. It's too painful.

 

[GoBack]

That feeling of not existing is awful, I've had it a long time. I think medications added to it, just disconnect ed from everyone and everything, living in the past when things were kinda normal

 

[N2200]

My reason for wanting to die, started from birth. You now how people say, you are here for a reason, mine was only to endure pain and misery. For my heart and soul to become so damaged, that nothing could repair it. Physically abused at home, sexually at school. And no one could help or save me. Since I was 13 I have been thinking over and over about death and the peace of it, but death never came. All I want is to be at peace and not hurt, people choose to hurt and damage me and no one choose to help me, it's my right to decided what to do in my living hell but no matter how close I get to death, this hell wont let me go, so anyone know, how I can eventually get it done and end the pain.

 

[WinterFaust]

That feeling of not existing is awful, I've had it a long time. I think medications added to it, just disconnect ed from everyone and everything, living in the past when things were kinda normal

Exactly. I've also felt this way for a while and I know it was amplified by depression. But now, I really am disconnected from everyone and everything and just alone. I feel like even when I catch the bus, no one will notice. It will be as if I never existed at all. It's a terribly lonely thought.

 

[RayoSinSol]

I live in the newest incarnation of Rome, and I can't unsee the truth of the society in which I am immersed.

 

[Donk]

Exactly. I've also felt this way for a while and I know it was amplified by depression. But now, I really am disconnected from everyone and everything and just alone. I feel like even when I catch the bus, no one will notice. It will be as if I never existed at all. It's a terribly lonely thought.

this 100%

 

[GoBack]

Exactly. I've also felt this way for a while and I know it was amplified by depression. But now, I really am disconnected from everyone and everything and just alone. I feel like even when I catch the bus, no one will notice. It will be as if I never existed at all. It's a terribly lonely thought.

It is lonely. I pushed away anyone who tried to help me, convinced it was hopeless. I'm really sad I won't get to see what changes this all brings. If people can change, I mean will they really ?, maybe for a while.

 

[WinterFaust]

It is lonely. I pushed away anyone who tried to help me, convinced it was hopeless. I'm really sad I won't get to see what changes this all brings. If people can change, I mean will they really ?, maybe for a while.

I did the same. I know if I hadn't, things would be a little different. Now it's damn near impossible for me with all the added shit that resulted from this. God, why does depression make us do things like this? Being convinced that it's hopeless just leads to more destructive behavior and then it looks like proof that the depression was right all along.
I'm sad about it too. Do people change? Some do. And change in some capacity, even if not in a person, is a given. For better or for worse.

 

[Polly]

Deep poverty leading to death inevitably

 

[Mr.Nobody]

My stupidity.

 

[disconnection]

Never having wanted anything, really. Never feeling like I am a real person. You can put a mental illness label on it but that's what it comes down to ultimately. Now that I've lost everything I can see my past spread out and the fact that I had no interests or desires apart from basic self preservation. I did things because I *should* and underneath that there was nothing. And in the end, that's just not enough...

 

[Erdapfel]

I think it's much more difficult to define what you want than what you don't want.