Luck of the draw

[LostMyWay]

I don't really post here that often, but today I'm feeling really down. One thing about life that's always bothered me is how easy some people have it. And how easy they have it is entirely based upon chance. I've always been introverted from I was born. And for that I was picked on. As a result of this I never made many friends, and whenever I did make friends they eventually left me because I didn't maintain the friendships. But some kids aren't like this. They were born extroverted. Social butterflies that excelled at making friends. I'm sure you've probably heard this story before. Maybe you can relate to this, but what really bothers me is that it's all based upon chance, genetics, etc. It's basically all a dice roll, and this only makes me feel more hopeless. More suicidal. Like I've lost the game of life right from the start. I really envy people who won the dice roll. I try to be positive, try not to think about it, but it really does bother me. It seems like everyone else is happy and I'm the only one struggling. I'm getting older and older, nothing is improving. I'm most likely going to die a failure, while everyone else will die succeeding. It hurts a lot guys :( This post sounds sort of scattered i know, but I just needed to vent a bit. Doubt many people will read this, but if you do I hope you have a good day.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really can be unfair, and I understand how you feel. Some people are just destined to suffer more than others and there is often nothing they can do about it. This life is all based on luck and it is out of our control. I wish you well, this life is hard to deal with.

 

[nopointofliving]

I totally understand your point. I agree with everything you said.

You forgot to add that we tend to question life a lot and this led us to be more lonely and more abandoned.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

Me too, man. In my case my mom didn't care about my appearance, leading to me getting bullied because of my looks, which ultimately lead to me being in this situation right now. If only mom had made me pretty, I might not even be here.

 

[Efilismislife]

I even made a thread about it too.. i wonder if theres a philosophical belief about it

People who keep saying life is fair is ridiculous and i can debate them and show proof that theyre wrong

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Me too, man. In my case my mom didn't care about my appearance, leading to me getting bullied because of my looks, which ultimately lead to me being in this situation right now. If only mom had made me pretty, I might not even be here.

I understand where you are coming from, but any person (including you) should not have to make themselves look "pretty" in order to not be bullied, because bullies should not be hurting you or anyone else in the first place. Plus bullies will look for any reason to target their victim(s). Removing a vulnerability from yourself that they exploited will simply make them search for another, or they will just create one.

My post is not intended to invalidate your thoughts and feelings though.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Not to invalidate your feelings, but you are able-bodied (I assume) and have internet access. To many, you are one of those winners of the dice roll.

 

[motel rooms]

I'm most likely going to die a failure, while everyone else will die succeeding.

Most people are not successful & insanely happy. You're not the only one who's miserable, trust me

 

[Alec]

I've read it and I can relate so much. I just can't be around people, general anxiety + just being bad at relationship and small talk, and on top of it all social anxiety that can't get so bad I can't even get out the words right in front of people and just end up mumbling trying to speak. I hate how some people have it in them to just spend time with people, how they always seem to have the energy to talk to others and be social. It's far too exhausting for me. And it's not just about the inside things that's just a roll of the dice, another things that makes difference is if I'm born into a rich family or a poor one, and I'm born in the very underdeveloped country at war or in the first world country, it's just seem to be just something that happens like a roll of a dice. And lately I've been thinking more and more about it.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Correctly, you recognise that indeed, it's all down to luck. Not some of it, not most of it, but all of it. I'm lucky not to be the deer eaten alive by the lion. I'm lucky not to be the poor soul killed in a car crash. I'm lucky not to be that homeless man under the bridge. Now, none of this makes me grateful for my existence, it only makes me lose hope in reality for how horribly it treats its inhabitants. But it's absolutely all luck.

 

[motel rooms]

I'm lucky not to be the poor soul killed in a car crash

I wouldn't mind that kind of bad luck, actually. It's a pretty good way to go

 

[Superdeterminist]

I wouldn't mind that kind of bad luck, actually. It's a pretty good way to go

Indeed it definitely could be good luck, assuming one wanted to die and it was quick/not very painful

 

[kukukoko]

hmm idk my life experience matches this blog post

How to Make Your Own Luck

Learn how to get lucky. Ever wonder why some people are luckier than others? Well, you can be one of the lucky ones too.

markmanson.net

those times I really try to get opportunities (like the time when I cold called and went to 4-5 businesses a day to pitch myself and get a job) I get lucky and othertimes when I don't give a fuck, I don't get anything

 

[motel rooms]

How to Make Your Own Luck

Learn how to get lucky. Ever wonder why some people are luckier than others? Well, you can be one of the lucky ones too.

markmanson.net

Excuse me while I barf

 

[Superdeterminist]

hmm idk my life experience matches this blog post

How to Make Your Own Luck

Learn how to get lucky. Ever wonder why some people are luckier than others? Well, you can be one of the lucky ones too.

markmanson.net

those times I really try to get opportunities (like the time when I cold called and went to 4-5 businesses a day to pitch myself and get a job) I get lucky and othertimes when I don't give a fuck, I don't get anything

You're lucky to have the motivation, confidence, and chance to try for those opportunities, then you are lucky to have success from one of them. Not trying to discredit you, I know that's how it probably sounds. When you "don't give a fuck", those may be called your unlucky moments. Why in one moment are you motivated, and in another you're not? Nobody can account for it fundamentally.