Those labelled as having Aspergers might be more honest and brutally honest. This is tragic that this trait of being open and honest can lead to social exclusion. A therapist might help you lie better to be normal and have more friends. The'll teach you to find ways to say things positively and make people feel better about themselves by you not speaking openly and honestly. Like saying "i love what you are wearing it is so creative" when what you really think is "a blind man would dress better than you do". Lie to boost their ego than tell the truth and harm their ego is one way to be liked by those who are normal and average.
It's one thing to be genuine and a positive person who naturally always finds the good in others. Such individuals won't be as likely to face social exclusion. I assume such individuals are rare and everyone else has to fake it to fit in and not be alone.
I remember reading about a software testing company that hired those labelled with autism because they are better at testing software than average individuals. It was a place without the sort of politics that happen in organisations full of average individuals. From what i understand of the label those who are labelled as autistic (Aspergers is a lesser form of autism if memory serves me) are more honest and take honesty better than average individuals whereas average individuals get their feelings hurt by the truth. There's value in your difference. The value in your difference doesn't help with your suicidal loneliness though.
I say "average individuals" because that's how psychiatric research works. You are different from average individuals and that's how their science works by comparing those with Aspergers with the average. However their labels then deem you to be defective not different. There's an inherent negative sense in psychiatric labels. The vast majority of psychiatric research does nothing to seek to find the good in those who different like you are so i see it as a prejudice system.
Let me get off my soapbox...
You might find being interested in average individuals and learning about them as individuals helps you. Show interest in an average individual to learn about them it can be an attractive quality because some people love to talk about themselves. Then you remember important details about them and they like you even more.
Find something you are interested in and really get into it. Then you might find online communities and friends who are passionate about what you are interested in. This is a way to connect with people. Having a hobby or two is a great way to meet people and you start with connecting with them about the hobby or interest. From there you can build friendships. Again you might want to lie when you disagree with something or someone's opinion so you won't face social exclusion.
Or find mental health orientated communities. In England there's Elefriends for example. They might be better at handling your differences as you will be better at handling their differences. They might be more likely to treat you as an individual and as an equal.
Elefriends is a supportive online community where you can be yourself. We all know what it’s like to struggle sometimes, but now there’s a safe place to listen, share and be heard.
www.elefriends.org.uk
Or find something you are brilliant at. Some people are attracted to those who excel at something. If you excel at something then friends will come to you and forgive your eccentricities. This is a long term approach and i know you need a quick solution otherwise you wouldn't be suicidal.
Once you get your label confirmed you might also find others like you on Facebook. Connect with Aspergers groups and organisations. Add friends from those who post or post yourself in reply to posts from individuals, groups, organisations and campaigns for those labelled with Aspergers. You have an icebreaker which is commonality.
If it doesn't hurt your confidence to be rejected then you can try connecting with lots of individuals. Someone i thought was a friend always had bad luck with women when i knew him at university. He learned pickup techniques and he tried them out on lots of women. His techniques worked on a few women then he got better at it. I couldn't handle rejection like he could. What I am saying is you can try connecting with lots of individuals and if you can handle the rejection then you will find friends by trial and error. If only 10% of individuals have the capability to treat you as an individual and an equal then you try 100 times and you get 10 friends but if you only try 9 times you might not have any friends. I had like almost 3000 friends on Facebook at one point but i got like 50 "happy birthday" comments on my birthday. This was back when i thought i had anyone who cares about me like a friend would.
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You can hope you will not always be as alone as you are now if this is why you feeling suicidal.
PS
If you have the will please support the legalisation of assisted suicide. I ask for this little thing for me.