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[Renv1o_]

i feel so alone, everyone around me is struggling and all i want to do is destroy myself- but i'm not nearly alone enough to destroy myself the way i want to. i can't live like this anymore. i need a relief of some kind, but i can't cut, can't od, can't isolate. all i do is hurt people

 

[Hana68]

i can understand that, i was the same a few years ago, i was distracting myself in abandoned places to get away from everything

 

[Renv1o_]

i can understand that, i was the same a few years ago, i was distracting myself in abandoned places to get away from everything

How are you now? Distractions go so far for me, but my head always turns to ways to hurt myself and it's maddening

 

[Hana68]

How are you now? Distractions go so far for me, but my head always turns to ways to hurt myself and it's maddening

well after a while, i started self harming so just ignore that
i read your other post, and your situation is really terrible, read my reply and please just distance yourself to recover from all the others, you'll only get worse (speaking from my own experience)

 

[Renv1o_]

well after a while, i started self harming so just ignore that
i read your other post, and your situation is really terrible, read my reply and please just distance yourself to recover from all the others, you'll only get worse (speaking from my own experience)

I just saw. Do you really think it's unhealthy? Outside of self harm, me and my girlfriend seem to work so perfectly together- The last thing I'd ever want is to hurt them.

 

[Hana68]

I just saw. Do you really think it's unhealthy? Outside of self harm, me and my girlfriend seem to work so perfectly together- The last thing I'd ever want is to hurt them

it is unhealthy, if you do work perfectly try to prevent them self harming and focus on other things to try to recover, obviously i don't know your situation and can't suggest things, just try and focus on your and her mental health as much as you can, constantly distracting yourselves is a start

 

[Renv1o_]

it is unhealthy, if you do work perfectly try to prevent them self harming and focus on other things to try to recover, obviously i don't know your situation and can't suggest things, just try and focus on your and her mental health as much as you can, constantly distracting yourselves is a start

You're right- Thank you for replying to me :,)

I don't really know how to recover. I'm not ready to let go of the idea of dying but self destruction is so hard to hide from people you love. I wont ctb, but I want to. I wont relapse into sh again (hopefully) but I really really want to. After the a&e trip, my girlfriend is determined to get better thankfully.