Venting Lost all hope

[Trakehner]

I'm completely on my own. I've tried for years to get "help" and it's all been in vain. I will never get better. I've totally ruined my life and the damage done is irreparable. I'm a burden to everyone and no one loves me. Nobody will care or even notice once I'm gone. My ctb date of choice is April 14 next year. My plan is to save up a bit of money to buy a shotgun and kill myself sometime in the morning. I have nothing but scorn for society and do not wish to participate in it anymore. I'll spend the rest of my days in solitude and have somewhat make peace with that. I don't know if I can wait until next spring and my plan b is to hang myself if I become unable to tolerate life. I just wish I wasn't so alone.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you eventually find peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I'm hoping to come to a choice by December on if I want to stay or CTB. I hope you find peace.

 

[freakshow]

same im extmrely lonely right now i have basically accepted my fate, but I wish i had someone to talk to, and maybe vent a bit but no one wnats to keep someone as negative as me around.
i hope you find your peace.