Venting Losing my patience

[LifeIsASadist]

I want to turn 21 and move out already so I can buy a gun to CTB. I am so impatient to commit suicide self harm isn't cutting it anymore (no pun intended) as if I could get access to a gun right now I would CTB almost immediately and I already recently had a dream of committing suicide a couple nights ago so I need a gun NOW.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be gone, I understand that it's so dreadful and torturous suffering in this existence, to cease existing is all I wish for as well. But anyway I hope you find the freedom you are looking for, I wish you the best.

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

It sucks that death isn't easily accessible, in the mean time keep looking for things that you may enjoy instead of getting stressed about ctb, who knows you may find something to live for.

 

[LifeIsASadist]

It sucks that death isn't easily accessible, in the mean time keep looking for things that you may enjoy instead of getting stressed about ctb, who knows you may find something to live for.

Almost nothing is enjoyable to me anymore, the gym and martial arts feels like a chore to me now and I just wanted a gf my entire life but I couldn't even get that.