Hello, this is my first post!
I'm reaching out because I've been looking to kill myself for a while now. I wondered what was the way I would like to do it, and I think I wanna do it through meds.
I originally wanted to swallow all the pills I had in my medicine cabinet, drown it all with alcohol, and maybe cut my veins so I loose blood. However, after searching for the meds that you really shouldn't mix with alcohol, I found that the most effective for my situation are antidepressants and/or medication against anxiety. The anti-inflammatory medication (which is what I have) is just gonna mess up my liver, but not necessarily kill me. So does anyone know any type of antidepressant that I can buy over the counter in France? If not, how could I get my hands on some without a prescription?
Also, about the cutting veins, I think that you usually don't loose enough blood to actually die if you cut them horizontally on your arm. I heard somewhere that it's better to cut them vertically. Can someone please confirm that?
I was also wondering if perhaps taking meds and alcohol + drowning would be a better solution ? I just want this to be as painless as possible, but also make sure I do it. My biggest fear about this is failing the suicide attempt.
Honestly I've been dragging this for too long. I've wanted to kms since I was 12, and honestly I don't know how I've made it so far (I just turned 19). This summer has been a mess and I can't imagine being alive for long anymore. I'm sick of my abusive father, and I keep telling myself that in the end, I'm just a speck of dust in the universe. I didn't choose to be born into this world, and there are many things where I've lost control in my life (or I never had any to begin with). But we all die in the end. And if there's one choice I can make that's completely mine and irrevocable, I guess it's choosing when I die. Not to mention that I've always had this feeling that I wasn't like the others, that I was messed up, so I guess it's finally time to end this. There are too many people on earth anyways, I don't wanna waste space and resources anymore.
So yeah! Sorry for the long post ^^;
I'm reaching out because I've been looking to kill myself for a while now. I wondered what was the way I would like to do it, and I think I wanna do it through meds.
I originally wanted to swallow all the pills I had in my medicine cabinet, drown it all with alcohol, and maybe cut my veins so I loose blood. However, after searching for the meds that you really shouldn't mix with alcohol, I found that the most effective for my situation are antidepressants and/or medication against anxiety. The anti-inflammatory medication (which is what I have) is just gonna mess up my liver, but not necessarily kill me. So does anyone know any type of antidepressant that I can buy over the counter in France? If not, how could I get my hands on some without a prescription?
Also, about the cutting veins, I think that you usually don't loose enough blood to actually die if you cut them horizontally on your arm. I heard somewhere that it's better to cut them vertically. Can someone please confirm that?
I was also wondering if perhaps taking meds and alcohol + drowning would be a better solution ? I just want this to be as painless as possible, but also make sure I do it. My biggest fear about this is failing the suicide attempt.
Honestly I've been dragging this for too long. I've wanted to kms since I was 12, and honestly I don't know how I've made it so far (I just turned 19). This summer has been a mess and I can't imagine being alive for long anymore. I'm sick of my abusive father, and I keep telling myself that in the end, I'm just a speck of dust in the universe. I didn't choose to be born into this world, and there are many things where I've lost control in my life (or I never had any to begin with). But we all die in the end. And if there's one choice I can make that's completely mine and irrevocable, I guess it's choosing when I die. Not to mention that I've always had this feeling that I wasn't like the others, that I was messed up, so I guess it's finally time to end this. There are too many people on earth anyways, I don't wanna waste space and resources anymore.
So yeah! Sorry for the long post ^^;
