Hi wonderful people.
I was wondering if anyone out there would do me the honor of keeping me company for moral support, plus reporting back to this community, when I CTB with SN. I just ordered a couple of days ago and right now I'm waiting for it to arrive to the US.
My plan was to get an Airbnb in a remote area with no other houses around to ensure that I don't get discovered. I feel bad about doing this to the property owners, but it's absolutely imperative that I don't get caught and sent to a mental hospital. I've been 5150'd once before for a drug-induced manic episode---that's what ruined my life actually, and why I can't CTB with a gun. I cannot let that happen to me again. Plus I worry I wouldn't be able to work up the courage to try a second time, and I don't want to live my whole life in this agony. Of course I will leave a sign to warn the cleaning service people not to open the door and to call emergency services.
Anyway, if anyone is potentially willing to do this for me, maybe we can chat some to build up rapport and trust before the big day. I just turned 36, I live in LA, and I'm a creative, to give you a little bit of a sense of what I'm like.
Hope this reaches the right person. Thank you for providing this community. <3
I was wondering if anyone out there would do me the honor of keeping me company for moral support, plus reporting back to this community, when I CTB with SN. I just ordered a couple of days ago and right now I'm waiting for it to arrive to the US.
My plan was to get an Airbnb in a remote area with no other houses around to ensure that I don't get discovered. I feel bad about doing this to the property owners, but it's absolutely imperative that I don't get caught and sent to a mental hospital. I've been 5150'd once before for a drug-induced manic episode---that's what ruined my life actually, and why I can't CTB with a gun. I cannot let that happen to me again. Plus I worry I wouldn't be able to work up the courage to try a second time, and I don't want to live my whole life in this agony. Of course I will leave a sign to warn the cleaning service people not to open the door and to call emergency services.
Anyway, if anyone is potentially willing to do this for me, maybe we can chat some to build up rapport and trust before the big day. I just turned 36, I live in LA, and I'm a creative, to give you a little bit of a sense of what I'm like.
Hope this reaches the right person. Thank you for providing this community. <3
