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You_are_forgiven

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Nov 8, 2024
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Hello, I am a 20-year-old man looking to CTB. I will not be using this thread to vent on the reasons why: my mind is completely made up. I want to discuss what I have done, what I'm going to do, and what I should do.

In the past couple days, I have written exhaustive notes to everyone in my life. There are a litany of people who love and support me, and I want to make sure they know this was not their fault. I love these people genuinely and unconditionally; I would never want to amplify their pain. My plan is to send these notes on the night I CTB, likely around 4 AM so no one is awake.

That being said, I am still indecisive on the method I would like to use. I bought rope tonight, but I am unsure if it is the right method for me to pursue. I would either do this at a motel or in the woods, likely a motel since it would be a less open area. I know I need at least thirty minutes, so I will be sure to be far away from anyone who could potentially stop me.

I am aware of two other methods I have heard are effective: firearms and SN. I live in Virginia and believe it is possible to purchase a shotgun below the age of 21. I have no idea how obtaining/practicing SN works at all: I've heard it's effective and painless, but that's about it. What information should I look into on this matter? What recommendations do you have regarding my situation?

Lastly, I want to emphasize how happy I feel about all of this. Regardless of where this goes, I am happy to be going there. Thank you.
 
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You_are_forgiven

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Slight change of plans: I'm going to drive aimlessly tomorrow after writing some notes and then CTB in a motel. I'll try hanging. Don't know if it'll work or not but honestly don't care anymore.
 
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opheliaoveragain

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wishing you find what you seek. if you need to come back and get info on SN, people here are more than willing to help within reason as to not break site rules. feel free to update if you'd like. we're here for you 🤍🤍🤍
 
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My plan is to send these notes on the night I CTB, likely around 4 AM so no one is awake.
You never know who might be awake for whatever reason. If you're aiming for an undisturbed attempt I would consider timing the messages to be send on a delay.
I know I need at least thirty minutes, so I will be sure to be far away from anyone who could potentially stop me.
The other day I read someone wise here saying to calcute at least 3 hours where you will not be found. Take this to mind in however way you will.
I hope you'll find what you are looking for ❤️ 🕯️
 
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SVEN

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Best wishes, whatever your final decision. If things change, the group will still be here.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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I wish you the best, I hope you find the freedom you are looking for.
 

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