I'm somewhat similar, though there are people here that I do like but don't feel the desire to pursue anything outside of the forum. I've tried to meet randoms via gaming before and it just up being awkward. So then I feel bad about myself for not being able to interact. I've been introduced to people before and it also doesn't work out since I have no social skills. I don't think, like yourself, that I'm capable of making friends either. It's horrible to be lonely yet unable to change that, but I am content with what this forum offers because I had nothing before. I figured I'd be alone forever and have gotten used to it, but I also like having the little interactions here and there on this forum with people even if we're very different. In fact, I think people who are very different from me can be quite interesting.
I was able to make friends and stuff, but I don't want to anymore.
I just don't like life anymore and when i try to like it back i find 1000+ reasons why i should not
I don't like at all the place i live in. Plus i was good at many stuff but I could not develop any significant skill due to this whole shitty situation...
My father left me to rot in this hell multiple times in this stupid life. He made the hero outside the house, but never cared about me and my eventual problems. He cared more about his friends and the other side of the family, me and my Mother could be sacrificed
I even hit him badly once, he deserved. The funny thing is that he is even way worst than me... But that's another story.
Plus I'm surrounded by drug dealers/addicted, victims and all sorts of asshol**, i don't want to contribute to this sh**
. My escape failed, after some years(required more money than i tought).
The worst part is that my father love these people and interact with them.. It really requires so much energy for me to live this life and I just don't have it. Maybe i should go far away i don't know, but it is not so easy.