Location Advice for Partial Hanging

[Zee33]

I'm ready to kill myself this week. I've been planning on it for a while now. But I live in a group home, so I can't hang myself here. There is a wooded area nearby under this bridge. I've got a noose tied to the underside of the bridge just waiting for me when I'm ready for suspension hanging. But I want someone to find my body after I'm gone. If I hang out there I'll likely be eaten by coyotes and nobody will ever find me. So I was thinking that I could do partial hanging inside of a U-Haul van or soemthing. I don't want to waste a bunch of money of a hotel room because the one nearby only rents out by the week. So what are some suggestions? How would I hang from inside a cargo van? Idk what I would tie the rope to. I have a lot of blood pressure pills to take before hand, just to keep me unconscious for the duration of the process. Like, noose, pills, tighten rope, lean forward and attempt to lose consciousness. Regardless of technique, I should go unconscious rather quickly and with the noose tightened around my neck, I'll certainly die given time. But any suggestions on location? I'm out of ideas.

 

[jodes2]

An "S" hook should work, often there are crevasses in vans at the top you could attach it. But I'd check it out first if possible. Are you sure you want to do this? Have you given recovery a shot? Sorry you're suffering

 

[Zee33]

An "S" hook should work, often there are crevasses in vans at the top you could attach it. But I'd check it out first if possible. Are you sure you want to do this? Have you given recovery a shot? Sorry you're suffering

Thanks. Is that a Walmart buy, or more of a Home Depot find?
Yes, I've given recovery about as much effort as I possibly can. I'm getting close to losing another job and going back on the merry-go-round of homeless and hopeless. I just don't feel like dealing with that again. So I'm doing this more logically than emotionally. I mean, I've been in that realm of deep dark despair where you want to die because of pure misery and depression. But I never actually attempted anything. This time it's more like I'm just not cut out for this world. So I'm hoping that freedom from this purgatory will come with better circumstances. Maybe I'm crazy, or maybe it's Maybelline?

 

[jodes2]

Thanks. Is that a Walmart buy, or more of a Home Depot find?
Yes, I've given recovery about as much effort as I possibly can. I'm getting close to losing another job and going back on the merry-go-round of homeless and hopeless. I just don't feel like dealing with that again. So I'm doing this more logically than emotionally. I mean, I've been in that realm of deep dark despair where you want to die because of pure misery and depression. But I never actually attempted anything. This time it's more like I'm just not cut out for this world. So I'm hoping that freedom from this purgatory will come with better circumstances. Maybe I'm crazy, or maybe it's Maybelline?

I'm so sorry. Finding jobs can be tough. I hope you give it a go though? It's possible you could find a nice job with great people! Maybe look to start in a new field, something that inspires you a bit more?

I'd buy the hook from eBay, prices are competitive and they have just about anything on there

 

[Zee33]

Yeah, if only I had the ability to actually do that. But unfortunately that is a privilege that not everybody gets. For me it's pretty much what you get either works or it doesn't. And if it doesn't then you're fucked. And I'm tired of being in that "fucked" cenario. But I do appreciate the advice.