wristcutangel
What value is there to a life that wants to end?
- Jul 5, 2023
- 167
so many of the people i know online happen to be from america and i want to be sympathetic towards them but everything just makes me realise how little value a life like mine holds. everyone i know would sooner be dead than live with even a fraction of what i go through. isn't that hilarious? time and time again people will minimize my struggles. it's okay for me to not have any rights because being in a third world shithole already absolves you of all humanity. if you want rights so bad shouldn't you struggle more? cry more? leave and run and seek asylum and be a forever outsider? all of them will tell me not to ctb because surely it gets better surely you can tolerate never being human and forever being treated as lesser but when faced with even the slightest of threat they'll act the same. at least you have something to lose. if a life like that is so utterly terrifying and unworthy of living then what does that make mine?
if even what people praise to be the beacon of the first world and whatever would see me as sub-human, then what is there in the world? if you weren't born right then you're forever doomed with no changing it. at a certain point it becomes clear there's nowhere worth living, no reason worth living. if even lives that hold more value than mine still aren't worth living, then there's surely nothing for mine.
i envy and pity the first world.
if even what people praise to be the beacon of the first world and whatever would see me as sub-human, then what is there in the world? if you weren't born right then you're forever doomed with no changing it. at a certain point it becomes clear there's nowhere worth living, no reason worth living. if even lives that hold more value than mine still aren't worth living, then there's surely nothing for mine.
i envy and pity the first world.
