Literally cannot experience joy anymore no matter what i do.

[HermitLonerGuy]

Life's circumstances has me down and there are problems that cannot be solved, and im not willing to try to cope with them.

I am not willing to go on meds again, that is a fake synthetic life. Even though they helped me feel some joy it gave me indigestion, reflux and hair loss.

I dont want to have to depend on a pill to be normal.

I have to think of a method , its so difficult to decide as all have many variables.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least to me this existence does just seem to be made up of endless problems that continue to increase as time goes on. It certainly can be so tiring and torturous having to be here and to have to deal with it all, so your feelings of wishing to leave are understandable. To me there could never be a point to endlessly suffering for decades on end just to die anyway, existing is such an useless and unnecessary thing to me and I see life itself as being the true problem. I hope that you find what you wish for.

 

[outrider567]

A joyless existence, I can relate