Readytoendit

Readytoendit

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Sep 29, 2018
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I've decided to make a list of why I want to die. Some of the reasons I list may look insignificant or petty to you, but for me there real problems. Please keep that in mind.
  1. I'm actually stupid
  2. I can't make any friends
  3. My main family is mostly dead except my sister
  4. I have fucked teeth that will cost a ton to fix
  5. I'm ugly
  6. No one knows who I am except my therapist because I have trouble talking to people
  7. No one will miss me, by the end of the year they'll get over it
  8. My mom committed suicide
  9. I'm a loser and will always be one
  10. Never had a girlfriend. Will probably be a virgin my whole life unless I get a prostitute
  11. I'm weak
  12. I've wanted to do this for a long time
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
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I dont think anyone would say they are bad reasons to end ones life.

I feel for you actually. I could relate on some of them.

What is your plan of action if you do go through with committing suicide?
 
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Readytoendit

Readytoendit

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I dont think anyone would say they are bad reasons to end ones life.

I feel for you actually. I could relate on some of them.

What is your plan of action if you do go through with committing suicide?
Sodium nitrite. I could do it now but I'm afraid my family will hear me.
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
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Thats the method im choosing.

I might make a thread about when i do it so i can alert everyone on here if its reliable or painful or not.
 
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Readytoendit

Readytoendit

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Sep 29, 2018
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Thats the method im choosing.

I might make a thread about when i do it so i can alert everyone on here if its reliable or painful or not.
I've thought about doing that, but I want to destroy my phone first so no one can access it.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

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Excellent list.
 
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GeorgeEastman

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Sep 3, 2018
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My mom committed suicide

Damn, it's almost like a birthright then.

Kind of envious. My mom died of damn cancer. Even wanted to fight it. I told her good luck, but knew she had no chance in hell. I miss her and wish she was still around, but really her life was terrible and it perplexed me why she wanted to keep living.

If I ever get cancer, I'm celebrating by sniffing a pizza and buying a gun. Sure as hell not fighting it. Losing battle. I'd eat the pizza, but my stomach won't handle it anymore. I can still sniff it though.
 
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itsallover

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Jun 29, 2018
478
Damn, it's almost like a birthright then.

Kind of envious. My mom died of damn cancer. Even wanted to fight it. I told her good luck, but knew she had no chance in hell. I miss her and wish she was still around, but really her life was terrible and it perplexed me why she wanted to keep living.

If I ever get cancer, I'm celebrating by sniffing a pizza and buying a gun. Sure as hell not fighting it. Losing battle. I'd eat the pizza, but my stomach won't handle it anymore. I can still sniff it though.
Nobody really survives radiation. It's straight up poison so I see your reasoning.
 
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itsallover

Arcanist
Jun 29, 2018
478
A lot of those sound like low self esteem issues which I have none of either at this point. I thought I was someone a couple years back but now I'm just a nobody too.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
How old are you? I felt this way when I was 18-20. I tried giving life a chance, and it did improve somewhat, some of the time. However, I wish I had killed myself back then. It wasn't worth it.

I hope you figure it out.
 
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