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opheliaoveragain
Eating Disordered Junkie
- Jun 2, 2024
- 401
I know I am not the only one going through this awful situation but I'm losing my mind, or so it seems, and I'm scared and I honestly don't know what to do. It has been months of applications, bullshit non interviews, and lies from employers (the few that respond out of HUNDREDS). I hit nine months free from F the other day and I do not feel happy or proud or recovered. I feel worse. I just want it back. I just want it to take my life. I just want to leave this awful place. Every dollar goes towards preventing me from becoming homeless but that's running out and I can't stop crying. I just want the courage to hang myself alone in my apartment when I know no one will try to reach me (my depression and extreme scenario and emotions have alienated me, not completely, but nearly), as if they would even want to. I feel like I am a burden on fucking everyone.
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