_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
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Like its silly, most people would have ctb'ed long time ago and it gets even worse?
Im in my mid 20's and the amount of suffering is a joke, like I can't even have a normal conversation since roughly 8 years now. My entire being is a shallow shell of pretending, how are we even supposed to live like this?
Its like each little piece of joy gets replaced by stress, pain & suffering, i cant even have a functional relationship anymore, i hate that i drag down everyone.
There have been so many crippling events, i wonder how someone would not want to ctb. Lost all interests in my hobbies, literally the only things that gave me a sense of escape and peace for a few hours a day.. theyre all worthless now, no energy,..
Like the only thing that makes me happy is the fact that i still can ctb and am childfree.
Everything i tried, everything just broke, its like life tries to make me do the last steps and bring it on...
The worst part is still that i see my life slowly crashing, i cant do much, its like going against the current. I try so hard its even funny.. i truly think some people really are just ment to experiencing suicide in this world ngl..
Im in my mid 20's and the amount of suffering is a joke, like I can't even have a normal conversation since roughly 8 years now. My entire being is a shallow shell of pretending, how are we even supposed to live like this?
Its like each little piece of joy gets replaced by stress, pain & suffering, i cant even have a functional relationship anymore, i hate that i drag down everyone.
There have been so many crippling events, i wonder how someone would not want to ctb. Lost all interests in my hobbies, literally the only things that gave me a sense of escape and peace for a few hours a day.. theyre all worthless now, no energy,..
Like the only thing that makes me happy is the fact that i still can ctb and am childfree.
Everything i tried, everything just broke, its like life tries to make me do the last steps and bring it on...
The worst part is still that i see my life slowly crashing, i cant do much, its like going against the current. I try so hard its even funny.. i truly think some people really are just ment to experiencing suicide in this world ngl..
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