Story Life keeps reminding me

[Kaiten Ryu]

I've had this though for awhile now, but since august, it's becoming blatantly clear. It doesn't matter how well my life is going, or good I'm feeling. At the drop of a hat, all of a sudden I am "reminded" why I need to ctb. It's no longer about - "you just need to believe in something" or "you just need an outlet". I literally have no passion for anything anymore and the "reasons" are so clear that sometimes I have to fight back tears. In the end, the only reason I'm still alive, is the inability to find an cost effective procedure and the fact of if I'm found out to early and someone tries to stop me. I know pathetic.
Sorry in advance, I just needed to speak my mind.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I have no passion for anything either … I'm not really good at anything. I do still like to listen to music and watch tv or movies but I just want to die.
It's not enough to keep me here. Life is horrible and since I'm not smart, I will be working shit jobs until I die.

 

[gingerplum]

I've had this though for awhile now, but since august, it's becoming blatantly clear. It doesn't matter how well my life is going, or good I'm feeling. At the drop of a hat, all of a sudden I am "reminded" why I need to ctb. It's no longer about - "you just need to believe in something" or "you just need an outlet". I literally have no passion for anything anymore and the "reasons" are so clear that sometimes I have to fight back tears. In the end, the only reason I'm still alive, is the inability to find an cost effective procedure and the fact of if I'm found out to early and someone tries to stop me. I know pathetic.
Sorry in advance, I just needed to speak my mind.

Have you tried any medical intervention? I'm a skeptic myself, but I hate to see anyone jump ahead to the nuclear option before ruling out anything else that might bring you some relief.

 

[Kaiten Ryu]

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I have no passion for anything either … I'm not really good at anything. I do still like to listen to music and watch tv or movies but I just want to die.
It's not enough to keep me here. Life is horrible and since I'm not smart, I will be working shit jobs until I die.

I feel you bro

Have you tried any medical intervention? I'm a skeptic myself, but I hate to see anyone jump ahead to the nuclear option before ruling out anything else that might bring you some relief.

By Medical do you mean therapy? If so, its not that I don't believe it would work, it's just I seriously doubt I could afford it (or if my country even has therapists) and I'd sorta already know exactly what they would tell me. Trust me I've thinking about this for awhile now, sorry to say.

 

[gingerplum]

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I feel you bro

By Medical do you mean therapy? If so, its not that I don't believe it would work, it's just I seriously doubt I could afford it (or if my country even has therapists) and I'd sorta already know exactly what they would tell me. Trust me I've thinking about this for awhile now, sorry to say.

Yes, therapy and/or medication. For some people, it really does make a world of difference. Maybe it would help you, maybe not; I just like to encourage people to exhaust all of their options before making a 100% permanent decision.

 

[Kaiten Ryu]

Yes, therapy and/or medication. For some people, it really does make a world of difference. Maybe it would help you, maybe not; I just like to encourage people to exhaust all of their options before making a 100% permanent decision.

I respect that. Its honestly better to try than not to. It's just I stop think I'm too far gone, but I get you, it's better to be absolutely sure. Like making sure the stove isn't on when you leave your house. Anyways thx bro, I appreciate it.

 

[gingerplum]

I respect that. Its honestly better to try than not to. It's just I stop think I'm too far gone, but I get you, it's better to be absolutely sure. Like making sure the stove isn't on when you leave your house. Anyways thx bro, I appreciate it.

Anytime, mate.