Venting life keeps getting worse

[Levanter]

i feel so powerless. i've failed my course and have to repeat. i hate everyone in my course, i hate it. i don't want to spend another year on it. i wont be able to pay for the extra year i have to retake. im so lost. i dont want to be here anymore. i've lost passion for everything. i can't get anything done.

i'm average at best. at everything. average (now failing) my studies. average at drawing. bad at maintaining friendships. average body, ugly face. i have no passion in life, no ambition, i don't have anything i want to do.
i just want to be outta here

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable just wishing to be free from everything as existing here certainly can be so tiring, I get that it's awful when existing just continues to get worse. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Csmith8827]

i feel so powerless. i've failed my course and have to repeat. i hate everyone in my course, i hate it. i don't want to spend another year on it. i wont be able to pay for the extra year i have to retake. im so lost. i dont want to be here anymore. i've lost passion for everything. i can't get anything done.

i'm average at best. at everything. average (now failing) my studies. average at drawing. bad at maintaining friendships. average body, ugly face. i have no passion in life, no ambition, i don't have anything i want to do.
i just want to be outta here

I understand how you feel... I wake up everyday and it's like what on earth am I still here for???

 

[day]

Life does seem to only get worse tbh.. seems like everyday that goes by is just more and more reasons for me to want to CTB asap. I hate that there's no safe and reliable way to go about it and I'm some scavenger hunt to obtain medications just so my trip will be as pain free as possible.

Hopefully getting my AE tomorrow from a Dr's visit.

Sorry the world has been so cruel to you OP. I truly hope you manage to find peace.

 

[FindingHome]

There is no end in sight it seems.