I don't do anything but get high and scroll and hope for someone to message me. I can't even watch movies anymore. What am I supposed to do with myself when I'm not at work?
From my experience with 34 years of life under my belt I'd say that life is either extremely stressful or extremely boring. When I was married to my ex-wife I was never bored because she would either blow large amounts of money causing us to lack the money to pay our bills or something else equally bad or worse such as cheat on me for money/drugs and then tell me it wasn't cheating because she didn't love them.
Since I've been single life has been boring which is bad in it's own ways.
I feel the need for some excitement but I still value stability. Sadly, everything always tends to be one extreme or the other from my experience.
But yeah, I feel you. I pretty much do nothing but smoke all day anymore and scroll through this or Youtube.