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True, but in my case, life just takes so much effort. I don't want to put in any effort at all
My mom bothers me by telling me to "do something". She hates how I lie in bed all day, and she says that I'm "wasting [my] life". She just wants me to be a productive cog in the capitalist wheel though, as she's been brainwashed into believing that we all have to become slaves to the system. She says that the way I live now is "no way to live", she she says that it "isn't a life". I hate how I'm expected to do something. Why should I have to do anything? I hate how I'm expected to be productive. Why is there this obligation? I never chose to be born anyways, so why do I have these responsibilities just because I exist? It's not fair. I wish I could've been a housecat
Oh, my dad was exactly like that and would say that "this is not a life" and other things, he was hard on me I think but even he accepted my disability and didn't expect me to be working. I'm also not keen on being another hamster on the wheel for society and it's not like I can do it anyway even if I wanted to.
My mom compares me to "high-functioning" autistic people and asks me why I can't be like them. She compares me to people who are more successful and higher-achieving than me, and wants me to be as successful and accomplished as them. I literally have a DISability, and she knows, yet still expects so much from me
Literally. Life is a pointless struggle. I wish I could just dissolve and fade out of existence
Opposite - my dad sort of understood that things are completely fucked and bleak (economic wise and people wise) he leaves me alone now. My mum? Harps on all the time and says the words "are you alright" "I just need to know you are alright" daily and sometimes multiple times. She's definetly more "masculine" personality wise as time has gone on - she gets very argumentative, always starts issues, wants to be the top at everything, has a go if you aren't at her level. It's really fucking annoying. Probably wise they argued so much when I was young. Two people are argumentative and combative means a lot more situations where they shout and argue non stop. My dad toned down a bit after he had a stent put in his valve but he was a hot head before and he smoked a lot before I was born apparently (I'd imagine that didn't help with the help). Oh he has diabetes as well probably due to diet. They gas lit me for decades about diabetes and my teeth -
She thinks high functioning is rain man - she expects you to go to a casino and count cards and make Ā£50,000 and walk out. Then you'll be ok in her eyes lmao.
Even the things that aren't enjoyable (medical help) are pay walled off. It's a fucking mess.
Same. I don't know how I made it to 23. I never even wanted to live past 18. I don't want to reach 25; it's my maximum exit point. Life is honestly just a struggle for survival, and I don't see the point of surviving
I turn 64 tomorrow. At this point in my life, I think I can do the deed after anther trauma or so.
Those autistics that are able to do that are very high functioning, I'm definitely not on that level and I don't know why she expects that from you, I would hate to have your mum.
You described my mom to a T.
It's pulling teeth now. It's been over year since the initial GP seeing (and going down the Sertaline route). The actual emails for the National Autistic Society has been about 5 months because I don't have money so I have to get a grant. I've mentioned before but I had to make a folder with all the studies and marking up my experiences on it for them to even consider me. It's a messā¦.
Lol I'm "high-functioning" as well, but I don't think that I can function in the workforce or real world, nor do I want to. My mom told me that "Water flows downwards, humans strive upwards." It's some dumb Chinese proverb. She always wants me to be better and strive for more
Your mum says so much guff lmao. Is that one of her "positive life quotes" she spouts off to you and others. Sayings like that DONT work for logical people (let alone autistic individuals!!!).
It's not her quote; it's a Chinese proverb. The original is "äŗŗå¾é«å¤čµ°ļ¼ę°“å¾ä½å¤ęµ". I guess she wants me to look towards successful people and strive to be like them and emulate their success. She compares me to people who are better than me
Yeah I know it was a proverb or something along those lines. I just mean she regurgitates it to you like it going to flip a switch and you'll say "why didn't I think of that! I'm cured!"
I know that you are, I said very high functioning, we are definitely not on Elon Musk level for instance. It would suck having your mum because my mum doesn't say things like that jfl.
