roseleaf
freedom is a dream that is just out of reach
- Apr 25, 2023
- 233
i didn't even have a horrible childhood.
i don't even have a bad life now.
i didn't have trauma, but for some reason i still got panic attacks all the time. why, brain, why?
the people i knew, the people i still know, have had such worse lives than i have. so why am i like this? i should be happy with my life right? so why am i on this forum, contemplating every second all the possibilities of what could happen when i ctb?
the only thing that has kept me on this world for this long is the fact that i could go through so much more for it to even be deemed acceptable that i should want to die.
i have a headache. and ive been throwing up left and right. and now i want to sleep. and i still want to die.
i don't even have a bad life now.
i didn't have trauma, but for some reason i still got panic attacks all the time. why, brain, why?
the people i knew, the people i still know, have had such worse lives than i have. so why am i like this? i should be happy with my life right? so why am i on this forum, contemplating every second all the possibilities of what could happen when i ctb?
the only thing that has kept me on this world for this long is the fact that i could go through so much more for it to even be deemed acceptable that i should want to die.
i have a headache. and ive been throwing up left and right. and now i want to sleep. and i still want to die.